.::The G33k 1n P1nk::.

Ge ge ge no nyoubo

2012-01-09T20:22:00.000+09:00

Gegege no nyoubo is currently my fave drama. Oklah memula tgk sebab Mukai Osamu y berlakon tapi lepas tengok, whoaaaaah! tersentuh jiwa dan raga. kenapa?
first of all, aku tak suka cara Ombak Rindu. cam cerita/novel tu ajar supaya pasraaaaaaah aja ngan apa yang jadi. but pasrah and redha is totally different,
kat gegege no nyoubo plak, it make me realized how hard to be a wife. The main character;Fumie was from a kinda wealthy family before she got married to Shigeru yang miskin. tapi family Fumie tak tau tang Shigeru ni miskin. Memang miskin gila umah nak hancur, makanan takde,saving takde.
But Fumie accepted Shigeru anyway...while trying to help Shigeru in many ways. She cooks for him,thought lots of setsuyaku ideas, berjimat cermat etc.

a few points that I`d learned from th edrama is

1- accept your husband the way he is. shigeru well,typical lelaki,barang bersepah2 sampai Fumie kena marah sebab kemaskan barang2 Shigeru. Tapi dorg buat somekind of agreement yang Fumie akan kemaskan bilik tapi tak kacau brg2 Shigeru.

2-let your husband to enjoy his own hobby. Shigeru ni ada satu hobby yang tak brapa kena ngan ekonomi family dorg. memula Fumie mengamuk2 but last2,she tried the thing herself and pastu tersuka n sll tolong Shigeru buat

3- oh did I mentioned that Shigeru have only one arm? even with that, Fumie accepted Shigeru and tak pernah kecik2kan SHigeru.

4- hormat suami and keje dia

5- tak minta berlebih2.

easy say,I LOVE THIS DRAMA! and I do think that every BTB kena tengok.jadi wife susah wooooo

Vendors of My Wedding

2011-10-28T18:24:00.001+09:00

AKAD NIKAH

BRIDE`S RECEPTION

11-10-11

2011-10-11T01:00:00.001+09:00

Deary Hubby

Happy 27th Birthday! 27 seems like a big number, but I know, deep inside yourself, there is a small 10 years old kid.

But I love all sides of you.

I am sorry, that I can`t be by your side to celebrate your first birthday as a husband. We can` help it, my job at a full-time student needs me to be away from you. Don`t worry, as this isn`t permanent insya Allah.

Thank you, Mak and Abah for having you as their son. I love your son very much.

Thank you, Ibu and Abah, for accepting you and for letting me to choose you as my husband.

Thank you Allah, for giving me chances to meet you and to be your lawful bride.

(First date ever)

Frankly speaking, YOU are the best risk I had ever taken. Of course I have my own doubts and insecurities when we first met, but there was something that made me took the risk, and it was the best risk I had ever took up to date.

(the only pics of us when we got engaged)

I am glad you picked me not some other girls *roll eyes* to be by your side, to be your companion, to be your bride and to be your future kids` mother.

For me, it is the biggest honor a guy can give to a girl.

(Ring exchanging ceremony)

I have my own flaws. Please accept me the way I am, guide me when needed, be my friend, my lover, my partner and I hope I am your missing rib.
I will try to accept all your sides, and I am eager to get to know all your hidden sides as well.

(KB Reception)

I hope, we can be playful, goofy and act nerdy till we old, wrinkled and toothless. I am sure our kids will be ashamed of us, but that what we are, aren`t we? Insya Allah..

(Playing with Timba for kak Tul)

Dear Love, I can`t wait to be back to your side. It have been a week since I flew back to Japan, but the suffering is more than what I expected. Although we do skype, and email here and there, just like when we were in our courting phase, but those won`t be enough as I feel and I know that I am best by your side.

I want to cook for you, help you getting ready for work, send you off to work everyday, be by your side while you watch MU games/play games/read manga/drawing.

I want be by your side; be the one you see every morning, and the last you see before you doze off to slumberland.

I am sorry as I didnt manage to get your present ready on time. Insya Allah, it will be. Besides, you gave me mine a lil bit late right? ;P

(Outdoor Photoshoot, Shah Alam)

We gonna have fights, and disagreements in the future although we try our best not to, and I hope, that won`t fade my love towards you.

We might have difficulties and hardships, and I think that will be spices in our love story.

By the way, Happy First Wedding Month-versary. May Allah gives us lots more months together in the future. May Allah also bless us with good, and obedient kids in the future.

May Allah give us prosperous blessed life.

From your geeky and nerdy wife
Amalina "Cieri" `Aisyah

*Pictures credited to;

1)R'zlley TheShoots- Gambar Tunang

2)10Bucks- Akad Nikah dan KB Reception

3) hafizudinhamdan- Outdoor Shah Alam

Others are from our own collection

Akad Nikah Review

2011-09-29T09:46:00.000+09:00

- Hantaran
I made almost all my hantaran by myself with help from my creative cousin, kak Ja. I never knew that making hantaran is quite easy. I specifically told everyone that I dont want any fresh flowers for my hantaran as it is very hard to make sure that the flowers stay fresh all the time. I just stated that I want simple but elegant hantaran.

I bought the yellow roses and maroon roses from Nona-something and my mum bought the brown bakul from Nilai. My Uncle made the sirih junjung an hour before the akad and it was so beautiful!
For akad, I gave my beau 5 things; Couple rings which acts as our wedding rings, 3 different kinds of manisan and kuihs, and sirih junjung.

- Foods
My mum asked her friends to cook up beautiful nasi minyak and everything with some from the foods we made ourselves

- Baju/Tudung/Veil/Kasut

For my akad`s baju, my mum tempah it dekat Shah Alam. Sebab kain yang I nak tu, kat area rumah I xd orang yang brani nak buat,. I freakingly love my baju. my kain flows beautifully.

as for kasut, I bought mine from Outlet in Kyushu when I went there for a soccer match. I got them at 1980yen which was a steal coz the kasut matched my baju perfectly.

I bought my tudung from Tursab and had kedai near Pulau Melaka to iron the bling blings on it.

From the first time I saw mantilla veil, I knew I wanted to wear it for my wedding. But I cant find any that I like so I sew my veil myself. I bought 2m lace from Kamdar (sale! RM19.90 per meter) and cut it into the shape I thought will be the most beautiful. Then I salvaged all the lace and sew it around the veil. but unfortunately, the lace wasnt enough so I went to Kamdar again and bought another 1.5m of the same material. I also sew some pearl like beads along my veil and beaded it with brown beads.

- Handbouquet

I had 2 handbouquets. One from the bridal, and the other one, I tempah from Cik Tipah. I wanted a pink flowers with she managed to make them as beautifully as I wanted.
Some people asked me why didnt I ask for fresh flowers? Like what I write before, fresh flowers are not only hard to maintain but also very expensive. They also dont last very well.

- Dais

Its pink again. hahaha. I didnt mean it but well..hehehe. We had it done from a bridal center near our house. It was called Eifa Bridal or something.

- Makeup
For nikah, I had my 2 pupu to make me up. hehe. she did my makeup for my tunang too.

2011-09-14T12:12:00.001+09:00

I am now at Cherating

with my Hubby.

yes guys, you read it right, I am married <3

short and quick

2011-08-29T13:17:00.000+09:00

It is 29th Ramadhan and 29th August today and my mum is chasing me out of my old/bachelorette room into my brand new room. It is kinda emotional for me to part with my old room as the room hold quite a lot of memories.

My old room was situated on the second floor of the new wing. I choose the paint myself, kinda liked blue that time so my room and the adjoined bathroom/toilet were painted in blue. so do with the balcony. My mum only bought me a new wardrobe, a sliding door wardrobe big enough for me to stuff my things. I got into the room when I was 18 years old and it was the year I sat for my SPM.

I did almost all my studies inside the room. Sticking a newspaper cut of the new intake of AAJ on the wall beside my study table and promising myself to study hard. I scattered my mangas, my clothes and made the room mine. I studied, recited my studies loudly sometimes until 3 am, and got into PPKTJ. Since there, I left the room and only got back for once a month or sometimes once in three months. but the room is still mine. and still mine after I fly to Japan.

But as today, I am moving out the room into a newer room just below my old room. My old room will never be mine and it will be my sisters'. A new room, a new life, a new beginning. In many ways.

Here I am, writing a piece of mind about the room, and saraba my old room. we shall meet again.

By the way, to all my muslim readers, Happy Eid-Ul-Fitr. Have a blessed one and please, dont overspend. Think before you buy anything. Do you need that 10 kinds of cookies or another pairs of shoes to match the 11th pair of baju raya? Think

Dream and Choices

2011-08-27T22:21:00.000+09:00

My dreams can be closely linked to how I feeling that moment and what I am thinking, so they were usually bizarre and weird. Sometimes it feels real and like something that will happened in my life.

As the day is closely nearing me, I keep having weird dreams. But none affected me except for one particular dream I saw sometime in last week.

It was about the choice I had made. About me, someone dear to me. Lets call him B

I dreamed of B suddenly come to me and asking why I didnt wait for him but instead choose someone else. B, in my dream were quite different from whom I knew all of these years but his playful attitude didnt change. I kinda startled with the Q and I dont know how to answer him. He then kept appearing here and there, amused me with every trivia facts that he knows about me, trying to charm me back. Seriously I were dumbstruck, not knowing what to do or what to say. And I, in my dream started to doubt my choice; why did I choose someone I merely know instead of someone who knows almost everything about me, why didnt I waited for him, why and why and why.

I was woken up feeling very confused and all I wanted was to curl down and to cry. But obviously, I cant. I had loads of stuff to be done that day so I carried my day away, feeling confused and I kept thinking why did I made the choice until at noon, after I ran my errands and was on my way back to home, something struck my mind;

I didnt choose someone who is perfect and knows everything about me. I dont need someone who is now working my dream job and making fortunes. Nope, I dont need them all. I just need someone, whom I know is not perfect at all but he is and he will try to be the best for me. He who is willing to learn everything about me and wants to share every single thing, from a small piece of his fave cookies to his biggest secret just with me. He who loves me and wants to love me more everyday. He whom I love now.

When I realized the facts, all the confusion went away. Just like that. In a breeze.

Guy, lets make our own way together, and lets build our life together. ne? Love you!

2011-08-09T20:45:00.002+09:00

Imma off to Tokyo~
doakan semoga semua selamat2 sahaja ya~

wahai hati....

2011-08-01T10:17:00.000+09:00

tenanglah,
bersabarlah..
jangan dok excited sangat bilang hari bape hari lagi tinggal before balik jejak tanah malaya.
banyak lagi keje nak kena setel before that.

resumes tak tulis lagi,
gambar tak amik lagi.
rumah tak kemas lagi,
food stuffs berlambak kat dalam fridge tu nak suh sapa makan?
mikochin sapa nak adopt?
bills tak bayar lagi.
esok ada exam lagi.
lab? heh,banyak kot bertangguh
data kai punya junbi apa pun x buat lagi.
and so do with preparation nak mengajar.

SO!
senyap2, diam2 setelkan seme keje dulu ek!

baidewei guys~
Selamat menyambut bulan yang penuh barakah, selamat beribadat dan selamat berpuasa~!
(kepada yang berpuasa la)

takyah dok pikir sangat arini ni buka makan apa, nak moreh apa. yang penting, bape juzuk dah baca quran arini, dah solat sunat ke blum? dah terawih cukup2 ke? zikir plak camno?

hehe,peringatan kepada diri sendiri jua~

Pavlova Pavlova~

2011-07-20T22:18:00.001+09:00

I dont know where should I classify Pavlova. Is it a cake or is it under general desserts category?

Either one, I love making Pavlova in contrast that I can't make any cake. My cake always either be too hard, or inedible.

Pavlovas are quite easy to make but it's cerewet.

here is some of Pavlovas I had made from the first time I tried my hands on.

The first Pavlova I made.

One layered with unattractive strawberries.

Third Pavlova.

Made a 2 layered with cut up strawberries and some strawberries puree.

Fourth Pavlova. The latest one.

made this one as Lysa`s birthday cake.

Three layered with some chocolate shavings. I used 2 types of creams(plain whipped cream and mascaporne cream) as well.

The Pavlova is a little bit senget coz I made it too ahead and I drove my car too ganas.

As I am typing this, I have another mini Pavlova baking in my oven. I still need to perfect my Pavlova as my pavlovas were not too crispy. haih... wish me luck ne~

mirror mirror on the wall,who is the fairest of all

2011-06-17T11:37:00.001+09:00

*sigh*
I have been taking supplements, carefully taking care of myself,trying to eat healthily but yet, yesterday, when I skyp-ed with a friend,she told me that I looked sickly and pale than usual although I had my foundation on that time. Isn`t this bad?

Supplements and skincares by my bed for easy access

1- Body Lotion, 2-hair serum, 3-multivits, 4-Herbal supplement, 5-night cream, 6-chocola BB pure for skin and fatigue, 7-chapstick, 8-eyecream ,9-foot cream

I agreed that I am kinda tired when I started my FYP. Long hours in lab, standing while doing experiments with a few classes in between, gotten sick twice in 2 months (a record!) so I decided to take some multivits and the chocola BB to help me. Yup,somehow after taking BB,I feel much energize in the morning but I guess something is lacking coz people keeps mentioning to me how tired I look nowadays. And I hate to take pictures lately because I look like a shit with panda eyes and dull skin. #HALP!

My daily beauty regime involved of

1-taking my multivits every morning with a glass of water.

2-1 capsule of herbal supplement twice a day.

3-1 pill of Chocola BB twice a day.

4-Double cleansing (first with some cleansing oil then followed up with foaming facial wash)

5-Toner > day cream(Olay Total Effect) > Sunscreen (SPF50) for day, Toner > Night cream (Isoflavon apemendatah) for night

For weekly regime I

1- scrub my whole body

2-facial mask (clay or sheet depending on my mood)

3-Foot scrub

Twice or trice a week I would,

1-lotion my body

2-slather foot cream

3-put some eye cream (too lazy to do it everyday huhu)

4-drink freshly squeezed grapefruit juice or lemon juice

5-have yogurt. plain with some fruits

I also try to drink a lot of water and try to avoid sodas but it is very hard to do T.T I also eat a lot of fresh veges and fruits.

I have been following these regimes for the last 2 or 3 months but if people keep telling me that my skin is dull than glowing, that means there is something lacking in my regime. What should I do???

I am not trying to be as white as I can but I want my skin to glow naturally and healthily without looking pale and sickly.

Maybe I should opt for air jampi and mandi bunga starting from now?

Walking down the memory lane

2011-06-07T17:06:00.000+09:00

I kinda bored in the lab so I did something pretty stupid; googling my own name and pictures.
I came across a few of my older entries and I spent a good few hours reading all the entries I wrote up till the one I wrote in March.

Then, I came across this particular entry

The one I wrote a few months before I decided that I want to go to Tokushima Uni and do Biotech (okay lah,the full name of my course isnt biotech but Engineering in Biological Reactions blah blah blah)
I wrote that entry almost 2 years and 3 months ago,but it still managed to make me thinking of what I want to do in the future.
For the time being, I do want to be an engineer. The dream of being a full housewife will have to KIV until the time come.
I do want to spend a part of my life surrounding with test tubes, beakers, playing with microbs etc. I DO! and I want to.
I wrote there that my kosen`s FYP was kinda boring but actually, it wasnt. I kinda like it and what kind of result I will get each time made me excited. And the feeling after I managed to finish my thesis was indescribable. I felt like `Ya Allah,I never thought that I will be able to write this.Thank you`
The talk of being a freelance photographer and the somekind of passion of doing so dimmed somewhere in the middle of 2010 with me being too busy with Amino Acids, Microbs, and molecular biology. Did I regretted it? Nope. Not at all.

I am now in the middle of making life changing decision again.
I also just start my other FYP. Again,but in different course.

Some things had changed from the last time I realized it.

Out of nowhere, in a blink of an eye, I am now a fourth year student.
I am heading to my quarter of a century`s birthday.
I had changed from a skinny with small feet girl into this not skinny anymore but her feet still remain as small.
But I hope, my inner side wont change,or at least change into a better one.

(Lab B1 2011/2012)

In a blink of an eye, I am in Japan for 4 years and counting.

merepek kerepek

2011-05-31T16:05:00.000+09:00

Sebab ni entry merepek kerepek,so aku letak Jump break yek.

1
Aku rasa aku macam tengah homesick. terasa macam nak tempah tiket untuk balik malaysia terus hujung minggu ni. pelik gak la kan,sebab aku sangatlah jarang homesick. japan-sick selalu lah. hoho. apakah perkembangan ini?
well,nak balik hujung minggu ni adalah sangat impossible. mana aku nak pau duit? cuti pun takde. paling awal aku boleh balik pun August nanti. hoho. 3 bulan lagi hohoho -.-#

2
tengok sana sini banyak nya jemputan ke majlis perkahwinan. baca blog sana sini seme nak kawen. yang tak best nya, duduk jauh boleh tengok dari jauh je lah. macam daku layangkan doa dari jauh~
Baca blog here and there, seme macam berabis beribu2 semata-mata nak majlis yang lain dari yang lain. Yang grand seme orang akan ingat. Yang Superb. tapi la kan, kalau seme berlumba2 nak buat yang hebat2, yang buat biasa2 mesti jadi lagi lain dari yang lain kan?
ke sebab takut orang mengata.
well,biasa lah mulut makcik2. paling koman pasal duit hantaran yang dijadikan bahan. `awatla sikit sangat,anak tu ngaji jauh2, bijak pandai cantik` or `ya allah, ni nak jual anak ke hape? kesian kat laki nak membayor.ke hutang ni?`
semua bakal jadi perbandingan.
macam pernah member aku tanya pada seroang B2B apa dia nak bagi tuk hantaran;. The B2B jawab `jam G-shock.bagi satu pair ngan Baby-G aku`. member aku terkejut dan dan respond `aku ingatkan korang koman2 bagi Tag Heuer`
Lergh....

bagi aku, yang penting nikah tu sempurna, selamat tanpa ganguan. Hantaran just a adat. Takperlu membazir bagi yang mahal2, or mekap pelik2 when si pompaun sebenarnya tak suke makeup.

3
isu beer halal haram.
kenapa kempunan sangat nak minum beer? berlambak soft drinks lain yang lagi sedap,yang kaler kuning macam air kencing jugak yang dicari.
JAKIM kata, kalau kandungan alcohol dibawah 0.01% maka minuman itu boleh diminum, tapi bagi aku, kalau dah dia marketkan minuman tu dengan nama [BEER], alcoholic ke 0.00% non alcoholic ke, STILL, A BEER. Kalau kempunan sangat minum jelah ROOT BEER ke GINGER BEER ke.sedap pun sedap.

4
Penat.
Lately, walaupun aku tido awal, dan cukup, aku bangun dengan badan yang lemah,penat. seolah2 penat aku tak hilang dengan tido. So aku sekarang dalam proses nak try 1 ubat Jepun.katanya boleh hilangkan penat. Doakan ubat tu jadi berkesan kat aku yek. tak larat dah nak lembik2 dari pagi.
sebab penat jugakla, diri aku macam kacau bilau. Balik dari lab memang aku takleh nak buat apa sangat unless tuk masak simple2,dan lepas makan sambil layan bangumi jepun,aku tido. kadang2 jam 10 lagi aku dah lentok. Kesian IncikBeau sebab aku susah nak available untuk dia buli. yelah,kadang2 dia call,aku dah tido.so banyak menda yang sepatutnya kami setelkan,tak setel2 lagi.

5
JUNE IS COMING!
*sengih besar besar*

seteres dan bizi

2011-05-11T11:21:00.000+09:00

jeng jeng je jeng~ bape lama tah tak membebel kat sini. well,mari kita recap apa yang dah jadi antara last entry sehingga kini....
My last entry was at 18th February 2011..whoa...aku tak membelog for 2 months+.thats a record to date.
Lets say, I was kinda busy with my real life(and twittering is much easier). I went to Tokyo for a short gateway, sat for my finals, went through a shitty first few weeks of my spring break and then the enjoyable weeks came. I also got through lab selections and got into a protein engineering lab; playing with proteins everyday (crazy stuff but the lab is enjoyable)

Golden weeks also came and went. with me down with fever and cold for most of the holiday(and I am still) but still managed to do some crazy stuffs like went to Oita for football competition playing as a nurse to my team, sleeping mostly in the car and in Round-1. and also,me and mira`s spontaneous decision to go to Osaka just to shop. ehehe~

I also managed to get some stuff sorted and bought like super duper lots of stuffs. 4 pair of shoes, The Body Shops` body butters and shower gels, jersey, skirts and palazzo pants, perfumes and many more. about 40k yen of damage was done to my wallet.

But there are still many things I have to think and decide. Like what am I going to do once I am done with me degree. I am thinking of continuing my studies in either Japan or Malaysia. But there is still a big BUT floating around. Working is another option to consider but I still cant picture myself waking up early to beat the traffic jam and working 9-5 like everyone else. I want something different than other. At least different to my childhood friends. They are all finished with their degree, working (mostly) in government section, and then getting married, have kids... everyone seems to follow this circulation which I want it to be a little bit different.
Of course I do want to get married(at last!) but that isnt the main thing I am thinking about now. I want something more in my life. Something different and something I want to do it for a lifetime. I do have several plans in my mind but all of these wont work when I am not financial stable. So in the end, I think I have to jump into to the same bandwagon like everyone else and plan later....

so for the time being,I am busy with that thing and with my lab. Thesis to be read, experiments to be conducted, and of course, life to be lived to.

So Far,It Is So Good.

Day 18 – Something that makes you laugh.

2011-02-18T14:46:00.000+09:00

Mikochin never failed to make me laugh everyday. She is so cute and the best! I love her very much!

and so do with MrBeau. He usually makes me laugh when I feel unmotivated to go to class or when I feel down or when I am mad at him. Usually with a simple jokes or just a `ala busyuk2 abang` the way he says it,put a smile to my face instantly.

Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.

2011-02-17T14:13:00.011+09:00

Highs
- My Parents were here in Japan! I got to get them around and showed them the lovely Japan which I cant get enough of.
- I am finally an undergrad student!!! alhamdulillah
- MissKeldai Putih.
- Got to go back to Niihama by my own
- Got to meet MrBeau.
- 17 Sept 2011 <3
- Bought Mikochin
- The content of the big creme colored box!!!

Low
- I dropped a few credits.
- money management. still not grasping the main point
- still cant stop shopping for useless stuffs argh
- A friend decided to not being friend with me anymore
- someone who I know since I was a kid, said some nasty stuff to me. Esp on `You have dark colored skin and that makes you not as pretty as I am` what? I am proud of my skin color. I am an anak Mami and this skin,is the proof that I am.

Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music.

2011-02-16T14:10:00.000+09:00

I listen mainly to mainstream music compared to indie music. I love BSB,KinKi Kids and many other. I am not the kind of girl who will go screaming for indie groups and I cant really understand what they are singing. For me some of them sounds like a noise. That is why I opt to the mainstream one. beautifully mixed and engineered sound for my ear.

Day 15 - 5 people in your life right now who mean the most.

2011-02-15T14:07:00.011+09:00

1- My Mum
2- My Dad
3- My Siblings (nak tulis satu2 tak cukup la weh~)
4- My Dear MrBeau
5- Myself

Day 14 – A photo of a cherished memory.

2011-02-14T14:00:00.011+09:00

3 years 10 months 2 weeks and 1 day since I boarded the plane to come to Japan.

since then, I had experienced many sad, happy, good, great, and many other things

A chance of a lifetime that I am grateful I took it.

Day 13 - Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.

2011-02-13T13:58:00.002+09:00

can I move to Japan until I get tired of this place?

other than Japan, I would really love to try living in Australia or Europe. I kinda jealous with my brother who is now in Aussie studying there. I will try to simpan money and go visit him there~~~

Day 12 - Bullet your whole day.

2011-02-12T13:52:00.012+09:00

12/2/2011

*woke up to a phonecall
*had small breakfast
*got email and got out
*went for a walk and talking all the way
*shopping some grocery
*went back to put the stuff away
*walked again to find some food
*shop closed! dang!
*walked walked walked
*stopped a bit at a 7E and bought a pau
*walked walked walked again and stopped to a hobby shop
*walked until Kiryu JR station
*roamed a bit
*took photo at photo booth
*waited for a friend to fetch us
*went back,solat
*off to Ichou for dinner
*had dinner
*Famima~
*shopped at a supermarket
*back and sleep

Day 11 - Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.

2011-02-11T13:44:00.000+09:00

1- namida hitohira ; KinKi Kids
2- LOVE ; CN Blue
3- Jangan Nakal ; Alif
4- Take me take me ; Perfume
5- Baik baik sayang ; Wali band
6- Yokan ; Heidi
7- Night+Flight ; KinKi Kids
8- What makes you different ; BSB
9- The best thing ; Perfume
10- Whatcha say ; Jason Derulo

Day 10 – Someone who came into your life unexpected and made an impact.

2011-02-10T22:45:00.000+09:00

A guy.
who suddenly greeted me with a casual `Happy new year`
A small, unexpected msg actually turned my life into something that I never think it would be.
He made me took the risk where he himself did the same too.

all can I say, I love him very much!

Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like.

2011-02-09T22:44:00.001+09:00

full-brim with smiles, and love.
happiness and laughters fill my days.
with a bit of tears and hardness for seasoning.

Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

2011-02-08T22:36:00.002+09:00

for the time being...
When I submitted my Thesis
The feeling,the look from my Lecturer, is indescribable!

Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

2011-02-07T22:33:00.000+09:00

I belong to The Twin and I think, the zodiac do fit my personality.

In Many Way

Day 06 - A photo of yourself and write 30 interesting facts about yourself.

2011-02-06T22:30:00.000+09:00

1- I love Sailormoon so much that I bought a full set of the manga although I already have one at home.

2- I love pesto and I can eat it everyday. Apart from making some pasta from it, I also spread it thinly on my bread. (toast the bread>thin butter>pesto>drizzle with olive oil=YUM!)

3- I love cooking that I am gaining weight so much.

4- I have a pet hamster

5- I have this box I labelled it with `kotak botol air saya` which can hold 6 500ml PET bottles.

6- I drink water from the box and aiming 1 box per day

7- I am trying to lose some weight.

8- I love Haagen Dazs`s Macadamia Nut, Honey Milk and Carameled Walnuts

9- If you take me to BR31, I would probably choose Love Potion and some pumpkin flavor one

10- I love meat. Gimme beef steaks, burgers(extra cheese please!) anytime!

11- and I love fries too. thin,fat,with salt,with cheese, anything!

12- yes, I love potatoes. baked with slab of butter, fries, in curries, hashbrown...

13- I suck in making cakes.

14- I survived tarts and cupcakes though.

15- and Choux Pastry too ^^

16- I love watching anime and reading manga.

17- but I hate it when people push me to do so. I will when I feel like to do so

18- I want to be an engineer.

19- who opens a small eatery. Fusion and bento shop maybe?

20- I have a big Penguin soft toy which I bought at Nagoya. during a school trip and lecturers laughed at me

21- I love being outside as much as inside.

22- I love snowboarding!

23- I miss taking pictures

24- I need to start working out and take the slabs of fats away from my body

25- I love Hello Kitty and KoRirakkuma

26- I MISS MY GIRL FRIENDS!

27- I feel uncomfortable when people asking me when i am going to tie the knot.

28- That is why I keep all the thing secret

29- I love A&W Root Beers!

30- and F&N Ginger Beer!

Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.

2011-02-05T22:08:00.000+09:00

err...I love my own life too much that I dont think of ending it by my own.

Day 04 - Your views on religion.

2011-02-05T22:07:00.000+09:00

I am a Muslim and I love being one.

and I am not a terrorist.

Islam is not just praying 5 times a day,fasting on whole Ramadhan, covering hair, but Islam is more that that.
It is a way of life where everything you do and every moment is a chance to praise Allah and to do good deeds.

Happy CNY to friends who celebrating it~

2011-02-04T11:00:00.001+09:00

Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.

2011-02-03T22:05:00.000+09:00

Drugs-
they are fine if they are used as medicine. But if used wrongly,it can destroy a person, a family, and even a country

alcohol-
A NO NO for me. Even if it comes with `0.00% alcohol` `halal beer` etc. It is still an alcohol

but if you on the side who loves alcohol, you should know what you like and never push yourself too far. a trip to ER isnt what anyone wants to hear.

Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.

2011-02-02T21:59:00.000+09:00

10 years from now, I would be 35 years old.

I should have a small family of my own; a daughter and a son. With a very wonderful husband.
I might be working and by this time, we should own a house. I prefer a landed property please.
I also making my own way to open my own brand which I like to keep it to myself.

SLIM TALL STYLISH HOT MOM PLEASE!

Wordless Wednesday

2011-02-02T19:31:00.002+09:00

=love

Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

2011-02-01T22:00:00.001+09:00

All that everyone should know is, I am single but not available.

ok fine. I will come clean....

I am engaged to a very wonderful guy.
Since more than half a year ago.
:D

Get to know me in 30 days.

2011-02-01T21:56:00.000+09:00

timbvtcher:

Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.

Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Day 04 - Your views on religion.

Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.

Day 06 - A photo of yourself and write 30 interesting facts about yourself.

Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like.

Day 10 – Someone who came into your life unexpected and made an impact.

Day 11 - Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.

Day 12 - Bullet your whole day.

Day 13 - Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.

Day 14 – A photo of a cherished memory.

Day 15 - 5 people in your life right now who mean the most.

Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music.

Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.

Day 18 – Something that makes you laugh.

Day 19 - Disrespecting your parents.

Day 20 - How important you think education is.

Day 21 - One of your favorite shows.

Day 22 – Something you want to do before you die.

Day 23 - Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive.

Day 24 – Somewhere you would like to travel.

Day 25 – A photo you took.

Day 26 - What kind of person attracts you.

Day 27 - A problem that you have had.

Day 28 - Something that you miss.

Day 29 - Goals for the next 30 days.

Day 30 - Your highs and lows of this month.

The Best Of 2010

2011-01-04T14:10:00.000+09:00

(sementara aku takde Idea nak membebel apa2 kat blog ni and to avoid from this to rot and to dust. Labah2 lipas2 sila pi men jejauh!)

THE BEST BUY OF 2010 (tak mengikut turutan)
10 of the best thing I bought throughout 2010 that I can think of

1- Cik Keldai Putih.

Walaupun CikKeldai ni agak mahal to standard and pintu dia dah kreok kreok, dia sangat berguna! I love her very much! dengan dia aku dah berjaya sampai ke Niihama jumpa member2 lama. <3 you sayang!

(gambar ngan member2 kat Niihama)

2- Breadmaker
~~(malas nak upload pic)~~

memang dalam wishlist and I really love it! roti roti fresh sampai tak termakan dah.haha

3- Mikochin
(masuk dalam benda yang dibeli jugak tu~)

My baby! She has helped me to get through a lot of hard time and makes me feel ease living alone. I love her very much and I cant even think what to do when she died(hamster has a very short life span)

4- iPhone 4

*nangis* I dont know how to describe how fabulous this phone.

5- Electric blanket
GET me through cold winter night! I thank MrBeau for pushing me to buy one.

6- Fridge, Microwave
Hahaha,alatan asas tuk hidup sorang. Owh tambah encik periuk nasi skali. you are the best!

7- Boots!

konon2 nye terasa ganas la pakai boots ni.haha. nope it is really easy to wear (I hate kasut y susah nak pakai converse pun bg aku susah nak pakai) and it is very comfy <3 <3

8- Kalendar 2011 (Coach)

Padahal dapat pree masa beli majalah.hahaha.cheapskate

9- CD Yuna!!!

Yuna`s OP was given to me from a friend, and sebab atas beberapa sebab yang tertentu,CD tu kat mesia. I bought Yuna`s first album when I was at home last raya and this CD has been playing non stop on my Keldai`s CD player sampai orang len naik bengang.opsie~~~

10- Tiket balik Mesia last Sept.

Being home for raya and many more.

The feeling to be able to see and meet family members is indescribable. Furthermore, this was the first time I was home for Raya although I was late(flight was on 2nd Raya) All I can said, every sen and yen I spent for freakingly expensive tickets was the best sen and yen I spent.

The feeling of my mum hugging me at the airport, the feeling seeing him at airport, the feeling being *there*, the feeling sending my sibs off to many many part ofr Malaysia and world, the feeling seeing his sad face sending me off, the feeling getting free upgrade, the feeling being home after a year, the foods(although this time I didnt get to eat as much as I usually do) were the best!

Wait,as I will be home sooner or later!

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2010-12-30T20:57:00.000+09:00

Summary of 2010 (Blog)

I`d written 104 (105 including this entry) entries.
The most entries was written in March with 19 entries in total.
The least entries was written in September with 2 entries in total.
My blog now has 62 followers and 16258 hits since I dont know when. But not since I started the blog.

JANUARY
1- Started fresh with `something` between me and a friend resolved.
2- Started my own blog shoppe Gemini*Shoppe
3- All I want is to be happy.
4- Super busy.
5- Suddenly want a pet. A cat to be exact
6- WISHLIST!!!!
7- Was thinking about making a very big decision about something that I thought going to break my heart into pieces.
8- Struggling with my Thesis
9- Missing my High School
10- Was mad about this Valentine promotion

FEBRUARY
1- Wrote about taking risk. The same stuff like the one I wrote in January. And yes, I am glad I took the risk.
2- Paid for my uni`s fee. A whopping MYR11K/290000yen
3- Hati berbunga bunga. kat sini pun

MARCH
1- Well,This entry summed up what I am feeling. #^-^#
2- Wrote about my classmates in Niihama Kosen in this entry.
3- Fell in love with Hachimitsu and Clover.
4- Busy Busy BUSY. With a lot of stuff.
5- Agak jiwang. muahahaha.
6- And I know, he is important to me.
7- GRADUATED FROM NIIHAMA NATIONAL COLLAGE OF TECHNOLOGY!
8- Ke Kansai International Airport again and again. This time was to send my parents and 2 youngest brother and sister back. They came to Japan for my Graduation. ^O^
9- Bulan ni banyak betul kes buang baby. X.X
10- Getting ready tuk pindah dari Niihama ke Tokushima.
11- Sensitive Issue. At least, to me.
12- Internetless for the longest of time >.<
13- Struggling in new place.

APRIL
1- Start living alone and as an undergrade. At last!
2- Never thought that I am going to be this busy!
3- LDR.
4- Banyak kalut and serabut bulan ni. sebab tak terbiasa lagi dengan life baru. Here and here and here
5- Finally bought this poster that I had dreamed since I was in Niihama.
6- Golden Week and aku rasa ada poltergeist la kat rumah ni.

MAY
1- Went to Bisan during midnight. Freakingly cold! Well actually,had a fight with him and he made me cry.
2- Confused about `friendship`
3- Starting thinking about The big M. Wrote about it here,and here
4- Emo.

JUNE
1- Nervous!!!
2- Turned 24 years old. This time with someone special by my side and with lots of people celebrating my birthday. And I got my Mikochin on my dad`s birthday~
3- Dah start panas melekit2

JULY
1- EMO (lagiiii!)
2- Dan lagi.
3- Lagi....
4- Summary on living alone.
5- Exams!!!!= EMO!!!

AUGUST
1- Wrote about my long time crush, Domoto Tsuyoshi.
2- Trying 30 days challenge of myself which I quited at day 16. Talking about unconsistent....

SEPTEMBER
1- relatively TIRED.
2- And emo. again. despise what actually happened in real life.

OCTOBER
1- Wrote about the guy I mentioned in January.
2- Latest pic + Autumn in Tokushima
3- Starting to hate AIRPORTS. And how dull is Autumn in here compared in Kosen.

NOVEMBER
1- I am officially FAT.
2- Feeling insecurity. What? I am a normal human with feeling la.
3- Migraine attack.

DECEMBER
1- I am not a nerd anymore!!! *cry*
2- Wordless Wednesday~~~ Here and here~
3- I want a IPAD!!! And how good cytoplasm-me looks in iPad...

conclusion- Banyak entry emo! urgh.... That shows that, I am not 100% happy yet. Need to work more on that side of mine.

To be continued on the next part.

Wordless Wednesday

2010-12-29T23:57:00.001+09:00

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2010-12-25T17:39:00.001+09:00

Can I have this for erm.... Whatever please?

Wordless Wednesday

2010-12-22T16:52:00.001+09:00

85

2010-12-03T11:16:00.001+09:00

I used to be a nerd back in my Maahad days.

A nerd who brought not only her KBSM text books but also her reference books to school everyday.

I opted to read the books or my notes during bus trips to and fro school with exception of mangas. I always had manga with me. Not those remaja mags or Cleo as I hate remaja and I haven't meet Cleo yet. Always manga and English novels and school books.

I was diligent in school works and can easily spend my time at school.

I aimed for the highest for the best and never wanted to be the second best.

I never talk back or gossip about teachers coz I believed that if I do so, the ilmu I get is without blessings.

I faithfully do my works went to any school programs and events. I never thought of skipping classes.

I would skip lunch to do extra rounds of Koop duty or just because I had works to be done or I want to sleep

I never complain of the heaviness of school works or the amount of notes I have to rewrite into my notebooks or how bored some class is.

The only thing I did was to break uniform rules.

Apart from that, where did the nerd went?

I eat a lot. Skipping any meals is unthinkable.
I sometimes talk about my lecturers.
I sigh and whine and try to get away from my school works and assignments.
I want to go home as early as I can.
I neither aiming for the best nor second best, I just want to get this done as fast as I can.
I hate my assignments. And I hate reading my textbooks.
I whine and whine and whine.

I whine aboutt my assignments I whine coz I have full class everyday I whine coz I have to get up early I whine n whine n whine! This isn't me. I hate who I am right now. Selfish Aisyah bimbo Aisyah. No! That isn't me. I'm Amalina. Where did the nerd Amalina went???

Resolution! Get the nerd Amalina back!!!!!

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2010-11-30T11:02:00.001+09:00

I used to get this kind of headache once in a month, or worse, more than once since I was in primary school.
It feels like something pounds my head. Not with hammer but with a soft hammer making my head spins and makes me nauseated. It usually occurs late in a day; around Maghrib to midnight. If the headache attacks me, I am hopeless and can't do anything but to turn off lights and TV, radio or any sound making devices and sleep.

(extra sensitiveness to light and sound, checked)

It usually occurs on my frontal head or sometimes on the back of my skull.

The thing I hate the most is the aftermath of the attack.
( didn't really hate the attack as I just need to pop a PCM or two, turn off any light and/or sound making devices and just sleep)
But the aftermath is the worse. I usually wake up in the middle of the night, STARVING as if all my energy was used to treat the headache.
Then, my foot and hands will be as cold as I'd been playing with snow all day.
I also can't wear my lenses and my mood also effected. But I can't help it. The pain subsided but the effect is still there. My neck is as stiff as pinocchio's, my head feels numb.

I just suffer an attack last night. One of the worse one this year.

And now I'm suffering the aftermath. And starting to imagine pentanol's smell out of nowhere.

Wait a second, did I just described a migraine attack?

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2010-11-30T04:13:00.000+09:00

Noun	1.	insecurity - the state of being subject to danger or injury danger - the condition of being susceptible to harm or injury; "you are in no danger"; "there was widespread danger of disease" insecureness - the state of being exposed to risk or anxiety security - the state of being free from danger or injury; "we support the armed services in the name of national security"
	2.	insecurity - the anxiety you experience when you feel vulnerable and insecure anxiety - a vague unpleasant emotion that is experienced in anticipation of some (usually ill-defined) misfortune

Is not good at all.

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2010-11-21T17:53:00.000+09:00

okeh.
kita tarik napas panjang panjang...
hembussssss
tarik lagi.....
hembusssssss

MASA UNTUK MENERIMA KENYATAAN

The Truth that,

I AM FAT.
I AM NOW ONE FAT GIRL.

okeh,yang nak mengomen, `ape gemuk nye ko...you look just fine to me.`, please dont do so, coz, I am fat now.

Self realization.

Semua nya bermula pada suatu tengahari yang tenang, dengan cuaca yang begitu mengasyikan untuk kembali beradu didalam selimut berkuasa elektrik sambil di temani penguin gebu kesayangan

NOT

actually ditemani suara seorang yang geram. `tidor je keje, cuba lah gerakkan badan tu.ni dok tidor tidor pastu merungut dah gemuk`
That was MrBeau

Tang tang tu la, gambar ke Bizan semalam,ada orang upload. And my oh my, what did I saw?
My freaking humongous big thigh and cheek. Not to mention my spare tires are clearly visible here and there.

That my dear friends, are the proof that I am no longer as slim as what I used to be and I am now F.A.T

I miss wearing my white jeans from my PPKTJ days. And the grey slack I bought a few years ago. And those nice tops and blouses which a no no to me now.

I realized that, I was slim and SLIM when I was in my MMP and PPKTJ due to the fact that I was physically active. I used to go for Taekwondos training which lasted for 3 hours per week. I walked here and there, sometimes just for a bungkus of nasi. I STUDIED FOR HOURS AND HOURS. I can eat a whole loaf of bread and another plate of rice and stay skinny.

No wonder why.

Gonna change my life style. Limiting my calories intake and changing my diet did me nothing. Gonna work my self up and crank my metabolism up a few notch again.

-one of my 2010 and 2009 resolutions which didnt work. *sigh*

81

2010-11-14T15:11:00.000+09:00

currently, I am strangled by my own hair.

I have been spending the last half hour trying to get this big blog of tangled hair into its silky smooth matter again.

I am this close of getting a hair cut and chop off my long locks into a bob. or have them permed into nice wavy curls (but in other hand,NO! as my hair is prone to tangle)

No-no to cut them off to. This is because, I am easily get charged and it means, I am prone to electric static. Especially in dry weather is the winter.

IF I cut my hair into a bob,the charges will make my head looks like a mushroom. Big fat mushroom. I will look like one everytime after showers and waking up from sleep.

*sigh*

it seems that I have to bear with these tangles. gonna get them off my head.buhbye~

80

2010-11-01T15:22:00.000+09:00

Look, I guarantee there'll be tough times. I guarantee that at some point, one or both of us is gonna want to get out of this thing. But I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine, I'll regret it for the rest of my life, because I know, in my heart, you're the only one for me.

(quoted from Ike Graham, Runaway Bride 1999)

I ♥ you MrBeau

01112010

[IKLAN]

2010-10-15T13:44:00.001+09:00

3D pop-up 2011 calendar

COMING SOON TO GEMINI*SHOPPE

stay tune to http://geminishoppe.blogspot.com as the cute calendar will come to you anytime;

PSST; MORE TO COME SOON~

79

2010-10-15T11:25:00.000+09:00

I used to like going to airport.
Going there means either; I am going back to Malaysia, or, I am going back to Japan which either is something I used to look forward to.

Going back to Malaysia USED to mean;
   1- Malaysian Foodsss! Satay, Nasi lemak, Nasi berlauk ikan aya, McDs, KFCs, burger Ramlee, Rendang, jering rebus with kelapa parut, kuihmuih
   2- Travel and holidays around Malaysia. Hello KL~ Hi Cameron Highland(I dont know why but I do like Cameron very much)
    3- Meeting my Mum and Dad and siblings of course! Nothing is much more excited than this.
   4- Being able to laze around and do nothing but watch Rachel Ray or Martha Steward all morning with a plate of scrambled eggs (from organic ayam kampung!) and a mug of perfectly made Nescafe.
   5- Shopping and going out almost everyday. Cuti kan? Pau kete and to KBMall here I go~ But now dah ada Parkson and giant and tesco to shop atound teeheee~

Going back to Japan USED to mean;
   1- Schools! Classes! Lab sessions! yes I am weird enough to be excited over labs and classes and school, but it was fun in Kosen tho.
   2- Autumn means = 留学生の研修旅行! 四国地域総合文化祭! 高専際!
Excited excited excited!
   3- After Autumn there will be Winter! Winter = Snowboard, Shopping, Tokyo, Harajuku, friends, doing crazy stuffs!

But this time, I was only excited going home to Malaysia. In many ways. For many reasons.

Even now, I am still thinking of Malaysia (and peoples I left behind)
Is this what people say as `Hatiku tertinggal Di Malaysia`? ahahaha

The journey back to Japan was the hardest. I was the last one to fly back (Usually, I was the first to leave), and with my parents going to perform Hajj this month, it just gotten hard and harder.

Upon my arrival to KLIA, and seeing someone`s face at the arrival, my heart leaped and cried as well. We are going to be apart again, with this time being harder that it was.

I was late for departure. As I walked, I can see his face, slowly gotten sadder and lonelier as I walked away. My heart, also, cried slowly, but I tried to maintain my smile.

I broke my record as I cried during breakfast. I didnt finish my Nasi Lemak either. I didint feel like enjoying the flight although I had the best flight and I doubt if I ever got the same treatment again later. Ahaha.
I cried and cried and dimmed my light as i dont want stewardess to see me crying. It will be messier if any of them saw me crying.
Thanks MAS for the flight It soothed me a little.

I cant say that I am officially hate airport but I getting to hate farewells

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2010-10-15T10:49:00.000+09:00

My latest pic.
Aku tengah blogging kat lab PC with sensei kat blakang ahahaha.
I am the one one the right ye. Jangan salah orang.

This is one of my latest pic with me wearing the inner yang ada awning and shawl yang kaler2 meriah2 camni.

I am still fat with 6*kg. Now at my heaviest. Trying to find ways to lose the stubborn fats and slim away. But still no luck.

By today, I have been living in Tokushima for 6 months and 3 weeks.

I am now 24 years, 4 months, and 2 days young. =p

I am still messy, heavy, blur, and well, ME.

I was back to Malaysia for 2 weeks and had the busiest 2 weeks. Well in term of holiday in Malaysia where it used to fill with relaxing and eating and going out with friends, the 2 weeks I had, was the busiest.

I had started my new semester, and received my results. All I can say is ALHAMDULILLAH. It was more than I expected with only 4 credits dropped and a more As than I expected. I dont know whether I should pat my back or not. Haha

It is Autumn in Japan and sometimes it is cold and sometimes it isnt. The smell of Kinmokusei was sooo nice and it is everywhere!

I bought the most expensive purchase in my life after my trustful MissPinkie(DELL 1420) and MAS tickets to back home last time (cost me whooping 110000Yen++). `The thing` isnt new,but she/he performs very well. I am now trying to make she/he to look more MINE. Pink, Hello Kitty and cute stuffs thrown here and there... but I have no money to do so. Takpe buat sikit2

Owh, dah lambat but I still wanna wish all my friends and reader, SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR BATIN.

Salam Aidilfitri dari saya, Nurul Amalina Aisyah Muhamad Azmi a.k.a ciEri

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2010-10-15T10:09:00.000+09:00

(aku bukan tertinggal 1 entry atau salah taip,memang entry ni num 76.entry num 75 dah disimpan dalam draft atas beberapa sebab2 tertentu.sekian)

I dreamed of someone last night. Someone who used to be a very good friend to me. But sadly said, not anymore. Not even a good friend and I am in doubt if we are still FRIENDS with each other.

Friendship is a very fragile. Especially between opposite genders. Yes,of course you can befriend and stay friends with the opposite gender but commonly, it wont. After some time, one of the side will start to take the friendship a bit more serious than it had been or starting to feel special in many way.

I speak based on my experiences. It happened to me not once, but more than twice.

I used to be good friend with this guy. We sent each other presents, called and chatted here and there, make fun of each other without feeling hurt...eh wait, sometimes, merajuk did add the spice into it kan?

Days goes by, suddenly he starting to be a little weird. But I had seen it all the way. I might be TOO FRIENDLY with the friend but it is how I treat my friends.

He starting to feel hurt whenever I called him `dude` or `dowh` or `beb`. He said,I changed him to be a better person and I am happy with that.

It was because, he had seen me differently and more than a friend.
But I still feel the same about him. He as a friend. A good friend. A very good friend.

We had a rough relationship after that. With me being with somebody else (not MrBeau,I hadnt meet him yet at this point) and he being busy with his internship and practical.

Then when I broke up with the somebody, he said to me that he actually like me. But I never feel the same about him. He was a friend, a very good friend to me, nothing more.

I gave him some time to think and I asked his to give me his answer before new year 2010,as I want to start with everything new.

Guess what? He missed his deadline, and I met MrBeau right on the mark.

He did said something after that and his words hurted me in many way. Suddenly, I becoming the bad guy who messed up his life. So that was the end....no?

After the messy part, our relationship wasnt quite the same. He avoided me and starting to change.

This is what I hate being friends with the opposite gender. Thing can goes well and also bad and also, stay the same.

I dreamed of him last night. Even in my dream, he still avoiding me. Yes, I do miss him, but as a friend. I did my best but what can I do if the person doesnt want to?

Dear friend, I miss you.

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2010-10-01T19:08:00.000+09:00

A part of you has grown in me

And so you see, it`s you and me

Together forever and never apart

Maybe in distance, but never in heart

anonymous

Happy Another Satu Haribulan MrBeau

I Love You

Yesterday, Today and Insya Allah Tomorrow.

73

2010-09-30T20:21:00.000+09:00

Life is unfair.

You put someone first who puts you second.

You study your ass off for a final only to get a B in the class when you deserved an A.

You give 110% to someone in a relationship when they only give 40%.

You’re there for your best friend at 3 a.m. when they need it the most & the next day they don’t pick up their phone.

You give something your all & sometimes get little to nothing back.

You care so much about someone who doesn’t care enough about you to say hi once in a while.

You give someone your time & they give you “sorry, I’m busy”.

It seems like you’re giving everyone everything & they’re just walking away with it.

taken from pompuanemo`s tumbler which is somehow and sadly, true.

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2010-09-03T00:00:00.000+09:00

You know what...
I am now feeling tired.....
very tired....
of everything....

O F E V E R Y T H I N G

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.

2010-08-25T20:16:00.015+09:00

Soda! SODA! Carbonated drinks! 炭酸飲物!

I love drinking sodas and I know that it isnt good for one`s health.
But.....
but........
BUT................

I still want to have them.......

To be truth, I am trying to reduce the amount I have each week. It is very hard actually esp in this hot weather.
And I do realize that I am drinking too much soda than I used to. Esp when I was a lil kid. So that is why I am trying my hard to reduce the amount of it.

sangat susah but I will try and live without soda

SAY NO TO SODA!

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it

2010-08-24T20:15:00.018+09:00

The internet.

The longest I can live without it, is around 2 full days. Especially when I am in Japan.
I cant stand without checking my emails more than a day as I hate when my inbox is full with unwanted SPAM and FB notifications.
Plus, I am addicted to Twitter. I twit a few time a day even when I am not connected. Thank god that I can twit via SMS and emails. *lega*

In addition to that, I cant live without internet because it is easier to contact my siblings using the internet and of course MrBeau is in screen most of the time.

I am connected almost 24/7. It will be weird if someone say that I am hardly in touch.

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)

2010-08-23T20:15:00.005+09:00

............................................
I never have a hero!

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

2010-08-22T20:14:00.016+09:00

Dear Mr Jason Mraz.

I got to know you from a guy. Before that, I do know you from your song like `lucky` but I never gotten to like you more.
From the guy(who isnt/wasnt my BF,just someone I used to chat with) I get to know you better. And I`d fell in love with `geek in pink` and `make it mine`. Neither did I knew before that I would use any of your song`s title more than a song. For example, this blog`s name and also, my hp email.
The song make it mine,had get me through the hardest time. Giving me energy to study throughout the hardest period during my diploma years.
Thank you.

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.

2010-08-21T13:31:00.001+09:00

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.

On my style.
Coz I lack in that department~
uhuuuu~

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

2010-08-20T13:25:00.000+09:00

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

This is a tough one....

erm... on how messy my room can be?

HELP HELP HELP

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

2010-08-19T13:21:00.001+09:00

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

(I wanted to write my ex but then I backspaced is name.or that girl who seems to envy me of everything I have,but then they did teach me about something. Life isnt a bed of roses petals)

No one.Everyone I know or knew has teach me something. Lies, backstabbing, friendship, hope, distrust, trust, to let go, to be oneself, to accept oneself, etc.

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted

2010-08-18T13:17:00.003+09:00

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted

A dear friend that I got to know when I was in secondary school.

We used to be bestfriends but as time came,we just drifted along with the time. We hardly keep up with each other or see each other when I come back to my hometown.

We blamed the distance for this.

She has her own bestfriends now and I am no longer hers.

It is sad but this is life. Friends come and go but only few will stay or will try to stay.

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit

2010-08-17T13:08:00.000+09:00

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit

this should be an easy one.

A `friend` (or should I consider the person still as a friend?) who crushed my self esteem and made me feel like I am the ugliest girl ever lived. The one who only came to me when they wanted has some advantages that I had.
I was once called `ugly` in front of other friends by someone whom I had knew since I was in primary school. That point I realized that I am nothing more than a slave. Not a friend, not in their clique. I was nothing. Nobody.
I was laughed for being me. They resisted me to be like them,to follow them but hell I hate to be a stupid follower.

And they still try to take me down,calling me names (even now) and trying to make me feel down.
I did,someone they called me by.but not anymore.Physically or mentally.

at least I dont have to tell lies in order to make myself seems higher than oneself

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

2010-08-17T00:33:00.000+09:00

I hope I will never have to lie.
or to choose between two (or more) important stuff.
To abandon my studies.
or to make someone sad

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.

2010-08-16T01:53:00.002+09:00

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for

My family.
without doubt la.
and my childhood friends.
why?
to show them what AMALINA AISYAH can do. For that I am as same as they are but somehow I am not.
and yeah,to know some do really envy my life is worth it.

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

2010-08-15T02:06:00.000+09:00

To be a good slave, mother, wife, daughter, friend, sister, employee, and employer

to open a cafe/shop/business of my own. To realize the dream I dreamed of having my own brand.

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for

2010-08-15T02:01:00.000+09:00

I had forgive someone who broke my heart into little pieces.

and another person who has make me feel like I am the most ugly person in this world thanks to her words.
and she is one of my oldest friend

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

2010-08-13T17:38:00.000+09:00

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for

for being in rage for something that someone had done to me. Sorry to say but I was so angry to you until recently. Every time your name flashes on my computer screen, I feel like strangling myself alive. For believing in you. For trusting in you. Maybe you are not the wrong one, I am maybe, but still, every time, every second I hear your name, or reading your name, the old scars bleed. Now, it still sometimes and I am trying to forgive you not for your sake, but for my own sake. and also, for my own future.

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

2010-08-13T00:31:00.000+09:00

My attitude.

My ability to stay strong and never give up.

My eyes.

My ability to love.

My self.

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

2010-08-11T13:04:00.000+09:00

reti buat kacau tapi susah nak kemaskan balik.

Rumah,bilik mesti bersepah ngan baju2 dan buku2. ceee~ konon kononnya budak rajin blaja la rumah/bilik hanya tempat untuk menukar baju dan tidur sahaja.

deep inside, I am a weak person.

I am fat now. Mahu balik ke diriku yang 50kg

I am harsh. senang buatkan orang sakit hati.

susah nak berenti shopping

fashion sense= zero

senang buatkan orang jatuh suka. dan senang buatkan orang berubah tapi diri sendiri tak berubah2.

nakimushi sket sket nangis. haaaa amik MrBeau plak jenis malas nak pujuk uhukuhuk majuk/nangis sorang sorang la jawab nye~ nyehehehe

wanna change but dunno where and when

too realistic. dreaming= not me. I dont have dream wedding, dream car, dream house, dream job etctec

30 days challenge of myself

2010-08-11T12:47:00.008+09:00

30 days challenge~
entry bernumber akan dihentikan buat sementara~

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

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2010-08-01T10:44:00.000+09:00

Kenapa saya suka Tsuyoshi Domoto?
Kenapa saya suka Tsuyoshi Domoto?

Kami mula bertemu di rancangan Shonen kindaichi no jikenbo. Aku gilakan Manga Kindaichi. So bila tau NTV7 ada tayangkan drama Kindaichi, aku sanggup berjaga malam sebab nak tatap muka Kindaichi.

First impression? OMG This guy really played the role very well. He IS Kindaichi Hajime without doubt. Like Kindaichi Hajime was created for him.

From there, I became obsessed on finding who is this guy. I web searched infos on the drama and from there, I get to know the mystery guy`s name. And I also found out that he is in a duo called KinKi Kids.

Cut the story short, I bought their album (D Album) Listen to it for like, 10 times a day. Painfully read the lyrics and tried to sing along (which I failed with flying colors. Singing and Amalina Aisyah doesnt come along FYI. Basically I croak than sing)

And from the mysterious guy, Tsuyoshi Domoto became one of my reasons for me to come studying in Japan.

Sadly enough, I havent got time (and money of course) to go to his concert yet. Damn! Time is ticking tick tock and I havent meet him face-to-face wawawawa T.T

Why do I like him more than the other Domoto (which,for most of people out there,the much better looking Domoto)

1- He is himself.

2- He sings beautifully. His voice is so nice that by just listen to it, I fall in love it him more and more everytime

3- He takes beautiful picture. Seriously.

4- His personality is just perfect.

5- The way he is,spells N-I-C-E and OMG-I-L-O-V-E-T-H-I-S-G-U-Y!!! He is sooooo yasashii so nice to others, the way he speaks is much better and nicer than the other Domoto.

etc etc etc

In short,
I love Tsuyoshi Domoto

***

010810

*Smile*

今まで

ありがとう

これからも

よろしく

ヤヤンのことは

大好きだよ!!

：ｘ

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2010-07-29T21:07:00.000+09:00

I need to stop running away.
I need to stop manja-ing myself.
I need to be harsh to myself.

Jangan manja manja.
You need to be tough in order to survive.
Your world will not always tinted in rose color.

Dah, Study weh.
Esok 4 papers.
Diulangi, EMPAT KILLER PAPERS.
One which I dont know why I am taking it,
One which I really need to understand.
One which I keep running away from.
and The last one which is The super basic one but the most important one.

kepala dah start pening2.
I am starting to find comfort in foods..

this isnt good
NOT good at all...

dah pegi study nuh.
study and tawakkal.

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2010-07-21T18:51:00.000+09:00

Seperti yang ramai(mungkin) sedia tahu, aku dah selamat menerima diploma 19 mac lepas.
Happy woh!
I am finally a diploma holder in Applied chemical engineering.
It also means that, I am going to start to live alone.
Here I am almost 4 months after starting living alone, writing what I feel and what I gained and of course lost in this short time.

1- Living alone = needs a lot of money. I need to pay my mansion rent, bills (electric, gas, water and internet).
2- I need to learn how not to buy foods more than I am going to eat.
3- Kena bajet duit leklok. Kejap sangat duit ilang. Dulu ok la sebab takde nak pakai sangat but now, takde duit=tak leh bayar sewa,=kemungkinan letrik,air,gas kena potong adalah sangat tinggi,=kena berlapar.
4- BAsuh baju lipat baju sangat la memenatkat.sebab nak kena make sure yang tak hujan or else, baju basah atau lembab and kena basuh balik.
5- rumah mesti kemas. aaaaaa. Leceh jugak nak bajet sume spick and span. Especially bila summer where lumut lumut senang tumbuh.
6- Sampah. Lambat aja buang mesti membusuk. Dah la dah di tetapkan hari apa boleh buang sampah. terlepas aja mesti membusuk dalam rumah. >.<
7- Kena jimat. Especially dalam letrik,air dan gas. Oh, tenet takpe, sebab unlimited. yang lainlain tu kalau tersalah pakai terlebih pakai banyak la kena pakai.
8- Barang barang dalam rumah = banyak duit. mula mula masuk takde apa menda. ada dapur gas dan mesin basuh aja. Tu pun dah lebih kot. Kena beli fridge, karpet, meja study,periuk mangkuk pinggan sudu garfu, tong sampah, toilet paper,kitchen paper, beras sume.owh TV aku dapat dari senior dan a few others things so sangat la bersyukur jimat a few ten thousand yen.
9- Masa berjimba adalah bertambah dengan sangat pesat. Tiap tiap minggu ada event atau pegi ain.
10- organizing life, as dah takde orang nak jaga,tengok diri ni. nak buat apa pun takde orang nak bising atau marah. Unless la pegi kacau orang tu.huhu

dah mau pegi siap2 tuk kelas~

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2010-07-21T18:23:00.000+09:00

I dont want to be an idol

Or being looked up

Or being popular

Nope

Not at all

I just want to be loved by people who really knows how to appreciate me

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2010-07-19T22:14:00.000+09:00

I blog less and lesser these days....
Sindrom malas

***

Kenapa orang mesti nak melabel orang lain and nak medescriminate orang?
I mean like `ok member ni tak cukup islamic/cool/best/bandar/tak cakap bahasa baku tuk aku tegur/kawan`.
Walhal before ni memang baik ngamngam ala ala tidur sebantal (perumpamaan aja)
I am not pointing this to anyone, more to remind myself and I just wanna convey to all how I feel when something like above happens to myself.

I am frustrated.
I am sad.

Why cant we just be friends like we used to be?

Suddenly,the way I look/think/act/talk become a barrier in our friendship?

Stop the nonsenses!

Yep, Aku tak cukup islamic up to your standard lagi. I dont post islamic quotes or islamic songs. But I still have my own ground to stand up to.

Yes, Aku malas nak berbahasa baku.

Haah, Aku gadis kampung yang serba serbi kekurangan dan kekampungan. Manalah aku reti pasal gig dan indie ni.

Oui, Aku langsung tak cool. I hate hanging my DSLR around my neck and I opt to bring my compact camera around more. As I hate to be a follower.

Hai, Aku sangat bodoh. Ada banyak benda yang aku kena tanya baru aku paham. I am neither born full with information in my head nor born genius. Thats why I ask around, sometimes question that makes me look like stupid and ignorance bitch or she-knew-it-all. Malu bertanya sesat jalan duhhhh!

Oh yes, I aint pretty. Not at all. I even have problems with my self esteem.

***

Exams stating next week.
Counting my days to *tuuttttttt* *tuuuuttttt*

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2010-07-06T10:20:00.000+09:00

Lyric and entry after READ MORE

She is so big hearted
but not so remarkable
just an ordinary humble girl
expecting nothing as we're made to think
Its a pretty people person's world

but you are beautiful and you better go show it
go look again, you gotta be true to your own
if you really wanna go to the top
do you really wanna win?
dont believe in living normal, just to satisfy demand

well if you wanna get free
and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart
you should own your name and stand up tall
and get real and see the beauty in ugly

well you are fresh, your face is fabulous
dont forget you re one of a kind
when nobody is checking the deeds you've done
and nobody is hearing your cries
you make all of the fashion statements
just by dressing up your mind

well if you wanna get free
and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart
you should own your name and stand up tall
and get real and see the beauty in ugly
and see the beauty in ugly
well if you wanna get free

and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart
you should own your name and stand up tall
and get real and see the beauty in ugly
and see the beauty in ugly

*******

I am still an ugly duckling and I will forever be.
I am afraid of things and afraid of me

No matter how hard I try or how well I did
I am still the old me
I am ugly from inside out
And will never be perfect
Will never ever be.

Dreams can easily made
but making if real isnt easy.

I wish I am a little bit more firm on what I want and who I am
Instead of following what everyone wants from me.

I need to remember,
Although that I am an ordinary kampung girl
I am not a cheapo
I am special
I am me.

-hari hari emo. haih......

65

2010-06-30T22:00:00.000+09:00

Why I loathe SUMMER

1) Freakingly HUMID! kat sini, humidity kadang2 up sampai 90%. That is like being in a sauna room. Or some room without proper air ventilation when its 40 degree outside.

2) Kelas kat sini yang tak reti2 nak pasang aircond.

Or kipas angin at least. Serious, they do not have fan in class. Electric Fan. We have to fan ourself or else we either die in humidity, or feel asleep or....

They will turn on the aircond when it is July. and when the temperature is 29degree (to some places its 30 degree. Differs) At my Uni, starting this year,they only set the aircond temperature to 28degree only. xleh adjust. arghhhh!

3) No angin when you are outside. Kalau bukak tingkap pun time kelas, biasanya, tiada pergerakan angin keluar atau masuk. No. Nil. Nada.

4) Panas will lead to constant need of Soda. Or cold drinks. Or Icecreams. Will lead to kekurangan fund dalam dompet.

5) Bila sendiri bayar bil, you tend to be kedekut. Aircond ada kat bilik, tapi so far, tengah tahan diri dan bersabar with kipas senior sedekah kan. And with Ice creams. And with unlimited supply of water. I am drowning around 4 liters of water these days.

6) Bangun tido dengan peluh 1 badan. Enough said.

7) Have to wear thin clothes. Like baju kurung. or Tee. but I have no Tees!! (alasan nak g shopping)

8) Panas+humid= makeup tak stay! pakai makeup, even simple makeup like foundation wont stay more than 5 mins. lagi2 kalau orang macam aku yang nek beskal pegi kelas (owh, Uni is just 5 mins away). Sampai kelas, 1 muka berpeluh2. There goes my not only foundation, but also my sunscreen.

9) Sebab panas sangat, malas nak gerak. So akan lepak kat umah aja. Will lead to constant consumption of Ice cream. and twittering. and sleeping. and will again lead to weight gain. ARGHHHH

10) It is easy to get sunburn here. Seriously. My hand is darker and so do my face if I dont wear enough sun protection. And I just lost my cap! adehh.....

Ada lagi ke?

My hamster pun lately macam xselesa. (One reason is, I keep teasing her. who can resist her sleeping face or her sleepy-I-Just-woke-up face or her nomming face....) Dia panas. I kena beli cooling pad for her la maksud nya ni.....uhuk2.

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2010-06-28T02:27:00.001+09:00

2 weeks ago, i`d turned 24 years young.
(and I refused to blog anything about it because 24 seems like old.old as in O-L-D,like you are supposed to have a proper life, proper job and matured enough when I have nothing!)

The birthday was a low keyed one compared to last year`s.

But as memorable as it has to be.

I did nothing on my birthday. Had no cake, candles or someone singing me Happy Birthday.
(but had my cake a few days later,so okay la! my first cake since studying in japan summore! And I did get someone to played me a happy birthday song by a violin. Lagi special kan?)

I even had a row with him on my birthday night.

(But I had a great day before my birthday)

This year, I celebrated my birthday with someone special by my side, with friends and filled with laughters.
And pressies (mostly from my family and him)
And loads of FB msges.
And few on my hp.
And no one called.
Never mind.

I am 24 years young now. A young woman. Although I still dont know what I want to do later in my life, I have new aim to be achieved. Something big,hard and full with commitment. Something that will change my life forever. but we never know what life has for us in the future,so I just can pray for the best. For Him knew the best for me.

Except the fact that I am fatter and chubbier and rounder, I love who I am now.
(Okay Okay,I still need to improve a lot,but we will be there sometime okay?)
I still have my childishness, and my silliness too. My clumsiness hasnt 100% goes away yet, my tongue had gotten sharper and I am building my own Shoppe with my own. With help from great friends and family of course.

When I was a kid, I never imagined that I would be when I am 24 and I am still cant imagine what I am going to be when I am older. Even who I am going to be when I am 25 or 30. I will be someone, and I am hoping that someone I am going to be, is a great person and has a great personality. And yet, she knows her roots.

As for my birthday, I had gotten myself something to care, to love and to share. She is my bundle of joy and love. I love her to bits to the extend that sometimes,I feel like biting her into half.

Please meet Miko (MikoChin), my cheeky daughter.

***

Thanks Ibu and Abah for being the best and the greatest Parents for me, for believing in me, for letting me to pursue what I dream, for praying for me, for doakan me everytime

Thanks adik2 for letting me be..erm..me;kakak yang agak gilo~

Thanks member2 fer being my friends in need, teman shopping perabis duit,teman makan and.....(sila isi sendiri wee~)

Thanks Allah for letting me alive, healthy, kicking, eating for another day, week, month and year.

Thank you Allah for your endless nikmat and rahmat although I dont deserve them all.

Thanks badan sendiri for staying healthy and `behave`

Thank you for my supporters.Especially who help me with my Shoppe.

Who believed in my crazy project.

Thanks to everyone

And I love you all.

With all my heart.

***

Thanks Lysa, Thanks Budak2 Ooishi~

***

and,

(Tutup muka kaver malu buat kenyataan terbuka macam ni. *blush blush blush*)

Thanks Dear for accepting me who is full with inner and outer flaws.

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2010-06-17T13:11:00.001+09:00

I had been thinking a lot.
What should I do.
What do I want to do.
What kind of life do I want to pur sue.
etc
etc..
It is all like a big jumbled pieces of jigsaw puzzle.
I am taking the risk. Now I have to think on what I want it to be.

Its all about choices baby.
Different choice will takes me to different path of life.
Do I really want to risk everything I have?
Am I really want to sacrifice what I want and what I had been doing for something else..?
Matikan impian citacita sendiri demi menda lain yang nampak macam penting
am I selfish if I choose my dream instead?

Walaupun aku tak sure apa yang aku nak buat.Tak sure lagi.
Yeah,of course,I can do anything I want.

But,still....
(sigh)

Balik cepat please.
I need your opinion on this thing.
After all,it might be something to do with you.

After all it takes two to tango.

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2010-06-11T00:38:00.000+09:00

Dah sebelas haribulan enam tahun duaribu sepuluh!!!!!

Oh no oh no oh no oh no OH NO!!!!!!!!!!!

*peluh nervous*

What to do what to say what to wear what to talk how to behave?????

And I have like 20 hours to prepare myself.

Great.

ONLY 20 HOURS LEFT!

*tick tock tick tock*

What if what if what if WHAT IF?

~~He doesnt like me?~~

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

*peluh nervous lagi*

Cuak dowh. Serious.

Cuak. Takut. Nervous. Excited. Tak Sabar.

~~(Nak jumpa dia depan mata)~~

Macam macam campur aduk gaul gaul jadi macam ABC.

~~Have a safe flight Dear.~~

dah la Ecah.

G buat keje ko yang melambak lambak macam everest tu.

kang ada orang tak tido malam ni.

(since bile aku start bahasakan diri aku `Ecah` instead of Amalina/cIeri?)

hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

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2010-06-01T01:26:00.000+09:00

!Haippp!

Sapa yang rasa entry ni terlalu jiwang dan sebelum anda muntah di atas papan kekunci anda, saya menasihati anda supaya klik pada butang X di sebelah kanan browser anda (bagi pengguna Windows) dan butang bulat merah bagi pengguna Mac. Sekian. Kerjasama anda sangatlah saya hargai.

READ AT YOUR OWN RISKS!

***

To ~~second~~ third handsome guy in the world who is now sleeping peacefully in black Tee...
(Sorry la yek as you wont get the most handsome guy yet. So far My Abah and my Ayoh -fraternal grandfather - are still the most and the second handsome guys in the world respectively. Huhu)

(OK, you look very handsome la today. Time tengah tido pun handsome with your rambut terpacak pacak macam ada letak wax)

Dearest You
Selamat Satu Haribulan.

Like what you had said to me a few days ago `Kita baru # bulan. Insya Allah kita ada banyak bulan lagi`

Insya Allah.
And may we have a lot more months together.
Our journey has just begin.
With a lot more to come.

Thank you for supporting me.

And keep being one of my backbones, will you?

Thank you for making me happy so far.

And can you keep making me feel like I am the most beautiful and lucky girl in this world?

Thank you for cherishing me.

And keep on cherishing me, will you?

Thank you for loving me.

And keep loving me, please?

(As I,love you too)

60

2010-05-26T15:04:00.000+09:00

(weee~~~entry ke 60 untuk tahun 2010)

Lately aku rajin bloghopping ke blog blog bride-to-be. Kenapakah? Adakah masa untuk aku telah tiba? Owh tidak sama sekali. Tolong jangan buat spekulasi yek.

Its all started after I took order for Gemini*Shoppe from a bride-to-be. Usha la blg dia baca persiapan dia sket sket. Dia plak ada link ke another b2b`s blog so terklik la dan terbaca la pasal persiapan dorang nak tunang/nikah/kawen. Kinda fun to read you know.

Tapi kadang kadang terpikir gak. kenapa orang kita (read Malaysian) obses dengan kulit putih melepak ~~macam tepung gomak~~? Yang asal ~~gelap~~ hitam manis pun akan try nak putih kan kulit sebelum their big day. Yang paling tak leh blah yang putihkan kulit muka aja while kulit tangan badan gelap/kusam aja.

Definasi cantik/lawa=putih ke?

Especially kat kampung kampung. Aku selalu sangat la tengok budak budak kampung yang muka putih melepak macam snow white tapi tangan gelap sebab pakai krim pemutih yang tak tahu selamat atau tak. And most of the creams have mercury in them.

If not, mesti nak putihkan pakai makeup bermeter meter tebal. Shading hidung so yang hidung penyek nampak mancung bak seluang, shading pipi so pipi tembam boleh nampak macam pauh dilayang....

For me, if the time comes, I want to avoid all those over shading. Biarla telinga cair dengan org potpet pot pet but this is my face not your. I was born with hidung jambu air, pipi tembam so why you want me to be somebody else?

Kalau nak pun, just enhance one of my facial feature not all of them. Jangan pipi pun nak shade, bibir bergincu tebal, mata pun naaaaak jugak buat smokey smokey... urgh... pilih 1 je la.

Strictly no mercury-based cream for me too. Dan jangan nak bising pasal jadi putih kat aku. As I do wear cream/sunscreen just because I want to avoid sunburn/UV ray. Plus, tak semestinya putih baru lawa. Aku bangga ngan kulit sawo matang aku ni. aku orang asia bukan orang putih/minah saleh.

And I know I am not drop dead gorgeous, I am just plan cute (which my mom said `cute is defined as "ugly in a very nice way"`) so stop bashing me about the differences between pompuan lawa and pompuan hudoh (some anon did commented on this some time ago.Mr ANON,YOU SUCKS!)

Jangan aja berusaha nak putih kan muka tapi daki berkerak kat ketiak dan kat pelipat lutut/siku. Jangan dekat nak wedding day baru terhegeh hegeh nak pegi spa. Sume boleh buat kat umah sendiri on weekly basis kan?

Takde susah sangat pun. Mandi sental la badan ngan span badan ke loofah ke berus badan ke. Ala...beli hp berribu riban boleh, takkan loofah berringgit ringgit tak leh beli pulak.

Pastu pakai la scrub untuk badan. Takde duit nak beli (once again malas nak ulang pasal hp ribu ribu)? Google aja for homemade scrub. Pakai losen badan. Tak mahal, J&J punya baby lotion pun dah lebih dari cukup.

Kaki jangan lupakan. Tak lawa kalau tumit pecah pecah. Rawat dari awal.

Sume ni boleh buat sendiri kan? Yang penting jangan malas dan jangan hangat hangat taik ayam. Bukan semestinya nak kawen baru nak kena buat. Menda ni kena biasakan buat dari awal.

Aku tak gatal nak kawen la. Aku hanya berkongsi.

dont ever make me start on being overweight

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2010-05-25T17:50:00.000+09:00

Update jap before pegi kelas.

Lagu cute banget yang menjadi kegemaran buat masa ini.
150juta kali by Kak FynnJamal.

Aku punya manja, kau saja boleh rasa
Rahsia kita berdua..

=)
For lyric click more ya

150 juta

Untuk kali keseratus lima puluh juta
Mereka tanyakan engkau soalan yang sama
"Eh kenapa kau masih lagi mahukan dia?"
"Apa kau buta, apa kau pura-pura suka"

Di seratus lima puluh juta kali itu
Di depan semua engkau tarik tangan aku
Yang sedang buat muka kosong tak ambil tahu
Sambil ketawa engkau bilang satu per satu

"Dia mungkin bengis seperti singa"
"Tapi dia nangis tonton cerita Korea"
"Dia mungkin keras bila bersuara"
"Tapi dia jelas, jujur apa adanya"

"Aku lagi kenal dia"

Dah lebih seratus lima puluh juta kali
Aku pesan padamu apa yang bakal jadi
Engkau dan aku ada mungkin tidak serasi
Engkau sangat manis, aku ini pula dawai besi

Di setiap seratus lima puluh jutanya
Aku pun dalam hati semacam tak percaya
Apa kau lihat pada aku jujurkan saja
Terus kau cubit dagu aku, sambil berkata

"Saya mungkin baran tak kira masa"
"Tapi saya tahan kalau yang salah saya"
"Saya mungkin saja keras kepala"
"Tapi saya manja bila kita berdua"

"Saya kenal sayang saya"

Buat apa dicerita
Bahagia kita rasa
Biar tak dipercaya
Peduli orang kata

Baju ronyok tak apa
Asal pakai selesa
Berkilau tak bermakna
Kalau hati tak ada

Aku lebih bengis dari sang naga
Tapi bisa nangis semata demi cinta
Suaraku keras tak berbahasa
Kerna aku rimas gedik mengada-ngada

Aku mudah baran tidak semena
Mana boleh tahan angin cemburu buta
Dan aku sengaja tunjuk keras kepala
Aku punya manja, kau saja boleh rasa

Rahsia kita berdua..

***

Tick Tock Tick Tock~
ihihihi~

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2010-05-21T07:49:00.000+09:00

Are distance finally catching up with us?
For I am not suitable to be a dreamer.

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2010-05-17T12:05:00.000+09:00

I dont know how should I describe myself.
I am not cool.
For sure.

I am not gedik, and will not describe myself as such.
I am not cute and of course I am not breathtaking drop dead gorgeous.
I am not lemah lembut either.
I am messy and clumsy.
And also too harsh sometimes.
No, not sometimes,but always.
I love to cook and I can sew
but that wont make me the perfect woman.
I have worst sense of fashion.
I sometimes wear my pajama to class.
My face are not smooth baby like
but rather kawah bulan like.
I am fat
and I know I will never get to lose those flabby thighs and arms and jiggly spare tyres.
I am lazy
and I know I shouldnt be lazying around
like what I am doing right now.
and i dont know if I have friend(s) or not
etc
I am just me,
with nothing special
just normal girl.
just human.
but FYI,
being me doesnt give you permission to trash me
or to make fun of me.
I am living my life
shaping my life
the way I want
not the way you want.
oh please.

-emo ke entry ni? just releasing some thoughts. no,I am not sad at all.I am happy right now-

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2010-05-17T10:27:00.000+09:00

Post ni jiwang so kalau tak mao baca sila kelik pada butang X di hujung kanan browser anda

I
am
afraid
of
Losing
You.

What
If
this
Happiness
Is
Just
temporary
one
?

What
if
All
the
Dreams
We
drew
together
are
just
an
illusion
?

no
No
NO.

I am not perfect, and so do you right?
and I might not love you as much as you love me.
But you know that I love you.
You not somebody else.
You that I had chosen.
Not some other guy I met last month or that cute senior.

But
YOU

I
Cant
lose
you
by
All
Mean.

I am afraid that I am not up to your standard.
For I am fat and ugly bitch.
Not to mention a lazy one too.

but yet,
You still shower me with your love.
Making me feeling like I am the best.
The prettiest.
The sexiest.
The best

i love you sayang.
For whom you are.
For loving me.
For accepting me.
For being you.
For standing by me.
For being one of my pillars.
For you.

And I hope this will stay till the end.

Amin.

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2010-05-06T21:10:00.002+09:00

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2010-05-05T12:37:00.001+09:00

Aku terbaca entry lama Hidd yang ni Cerita dongeng 1
terfikir
dan terfikir...
hurm.....
Bukan nak pressure hanya terfikir....
haha.

tipu r kalau aku cakap aku takmo kawen.
nak *angguk kepala*
tapi kadang kadang rasa takut *gigit bibir*

dapat ke aku bahagikan masa aku
can I be a good wife and a good mum?
Aku dah puas joli dah puas usung title single ke?
sanggup nak share semua menda dengan orang tu ke?

tapi macam mana nak tau samada kita dah ready?
aku sure tatau la weh.
haha

tapi frankly speaking
since aku start kawan dengan dia
I start thinking more towards the big M word
tamao mainmain
tamao sukasuki
tamao sajasaja isi masa lapang
mao serius

tapi
takut nak cakap kat dia
takut dia freak out
takut dia lari jauhjauh
takut dia pikir
`apelah minah ni kawan baru bape hari/bulan dah cakap pasal big M word`

satu lagi yang aku terbaca kat blog Hidd

"Ayu itu stok untuk buat bini, Kiki untuk geli-geli,"

Lelaki selalu mahu perempuan yang terbaik antara perempuan-perempuan lain. Yang untuk stok bini, dia akan jaga dengan baik. Mahu diusik pun dia sayang. Kalau untuk geli-geli, dicium, dipeluk dan segala. Haih. Selalu juga lelaki punya dua henfon. Satu untuk yang rasmi. Satu ditinggal di ofis untuk gadis-gadis geli.

aku takut orang jadikan aku stok geligeli.
bukan untuk serius.
sebab tu aku susah nak ucapkan katakata sayang.
sebab sayang aku tu sangat mahal.
bukan tuk dibuat main atau dibuat hiasan.

aku terlalu paranoid ke?

entry crap.

***

p/s; dalam cuak cuak takut takut paranoid paranoid tu,sempat plak excited bilang hari.
No, I am not getting married or engaged dalam masa terdekat ni
jangan buat spekulasi okeh?
Bulan june aku tak balik Mesia nak kawen/enggaged ape nye
Hanya sesuatu yang .....
Ditunggu tunggukan
Ihik *gelak gedik*
Dush *penampar sebijik*

Insya allah everything will goes like what we had planned and of course Allah has planned the very best for everyone.

ala~birthday aku aja la, puas ati?

53

2010-05-04T23:26:00.002+09:00

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2010-05-04T17:30:00.000+09:00

`Friendship Forever k?`
`Ko jangan lupakan aku tau!`
`forget me not...`
`kita kawan sampai mati tau`
`ko ngan aku tetap kawan sampai bila bila`

kita selalu dengar kata-kata cam kat atas tu terutama nya bila nak abes sekolah, nak grad, time tulis buku autograf.
tapi...
in reality nya, sejauh mana kita dapat kotakan kata kata yang kita tulis tu? setahun, dua tahun, tiga tahun...?
Keeping touch yep as I myself know, are hard. But we can still try to do so kan? angkat telefon sms, send email, tulis kat wall facebook. keeping in touch isnt as hard as it used to be.

`ko duduk jauh`
`padan muka ko sapa suh study jauh2 sangat`
`aku xde kontak num ko la...`
`aku malu la. ko ngaji tinggi..aku takat sekolah menengah jah`
etc etc etc seribu satu alasan yang diberi. alasan. padahal kalau nak, seribu ribu ~~lemon~~ cara ada. kadang kadang kita terlalu bias. dan juga mudah lupa.

`ala...dia pun mesti dah xingat kat aku.`
atau sebab dapat member lain, member lama di lupakan.
Dapat member kat sekolah menengah, member zaman kanak kanak dan member sekolah rendah dilupakan. dapat clique baru kat uni, clique lama kat sekolah menengah ditinggalkan.

Sedih jugak la bila jadi camni. Ada orang pernah cakap kat aku,`aku bukan taknak ajak ko, tapi ko jauh sangat, sure ko xbalik punya`
at least, bagitahu la. dapat datang atau tidak tu soal belakang. Ko ingat atau tak tu yang penting.
ces ces cescessss....

aku terpikirla kan, apa perlunya cakap `kawan sampai mati` friendship forever` etc etc when hakikatnya kita lupakan sume kata kata yang kita cakap/tulis tu after a while? hanya kerna semua orang tulis macam tu, tak semestinya kita pun kena tulis macam tu. Sure people come and go, but with some effort, you can stay where you are and what you are. 100 tahun pun. 1000 tahun pun.
Mungkin aku takde member yang ngaku bestfriend aku so aku pikir macam ni. maybe yes and maybe no.
aku tak suka bila jumpa member yang pernah ngaku bestfriend, yang pernah tido sebantal, share 1 selimut, yang sama sama makan 1 talam time orentasi, yang sama sama mengekek kekek bila baca majalah, tak kenal satu sama lain. rasa malu nak tegur bila jumpa. mengelak nak duduk 1 meja bila makan, etc etc etc. tipu lah kalau xd menda camni.

Please, dont make distance and time reasons to be apart.
As I still remember all of you.
and still long to meet all of you.
Tak kira yang kat SKSering, atau kat MMP. dn juga kat PPKTJ.

jangan biarkan ~~dirimu diselimuti misteri~~ friendship yang berharga hilang. make some effort la.

51

2010-05-01T02:10:00.001+09:00

...From now on and if Allah permits, may we have a lot more months and years together...

Selamat satu haribulan Encik Mohd Asnawi..

Dari Saya yang jauh

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2010-04-30T10:07:00.001+09:00

-50th entry of the year *clap2*-

esok start Golden Week.yippie~ GW buat pe? jadi kanban ーbukan kemban yekー musume. haha. seyes,tak tipu. sapa nak tengok kanban musume dan musuko tachi,sila datang ke Tokushima 2hb ni ya.

internet dah masuk. agak hari2 jugak la orang dapat kejutkan aku via skype. owh,sapa yang rindu nak tengok pipi tembam aku,nak dengar suara squeky aku,boleh la hello hello aku kat skype.

pagi ni bangun awal.tapi(ada 'tapi' r tak best) termandi serbuk cili.kat dapur umah aku ada poltergeist kot.masuk ni dah 3 kali barang -tupperware- jatuh.nak kata tak stabil,agak tak logik.sebab stabil.so,bertungkus lumus r bersihkan serbuk cili tu.sekkaku da siap kemas umah plak tu.
ーstop complaining!ー

okeh,nak print assignment

49

2010-04-28T02:05:00.000+09:00

ngehehehehehe~ just a short update as I still cant transfer pictures from my SD card to my Laptop.
I had been salivating over this poster since I saw it at Village Vanguard AEON Niihama. Selalu berangan nak tampal poster camni kat umah, So,I bought the lady last Saturday. Hihihi~

I like Audrey Hepburn even though I havent watch any of her movies yet. For me, she is soooo pretty and beautiful. Especially in this movie.

I really like my new house(room). So far I did managed to get it to look like what I wanted it to be. I did said that I want a pink room but in reality and due to money restrictions during my first month in here, I settles with a beige carpet, brown curtain supplied by my landlord, black TV rack and black book shelves, black standing mirror, red coffee table and leopard-skin-sofa. The only pink thing(big stuff not small stuff) is my Futon, which I bought them from my kosen days.

As many of you know how messy my room can be, alhamdulillah I managed to keep the messiness to a very minimum level. Insya Allah will try to keep it this way. Serious yo,tak tipu~
Tengah minggu ie selasa,rabu, messy la sikit sebab occupied with lab reports and night classes. Paling teruk maybe on Wednesday kot.Pagi bangun, siapkan report, g lab, g kelas fukushi, balik kejap masak, off to night class again around 7.30pm (class starts at 7.40pm) and I return home around 9.30pm (class finish at 9.10pm or earlier) So balik dah penat, I biasa mandi, have my dinner, chatting/video call while watching TV or doing assignments. Then go to sleep as I have morning classes on the next day.

(kata short update....)
Oklah, dah kul 2.mau tidur~

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2010-04-25T23:00:00.000+09:00

何年たっても
何年たっても
何十年たっても
何百年たっても
どんなことしても
どんな高い服を買っても
どんな可愛い服を着ても
どんな可愛いといわれても
結局
ブス名子はブスのままだよね

haih.......

47

2010-04-19T13:45:00.001+09:00

One messy whole day.
takde salah orang lain,salah diri sendiri.
sapa suruh tak buat report awal awal?
sapa suruh layan I am legend semalam?
sapa suh tak bangun awal pagi tadi?
sapa suh takmo bangun dari futon?
takde sapa except diri sendiri kan?

now,sebab lambat set printer,lambat g kelas. skipped breakfast and lunch and didnt drink even a drop of water.
bilik bersepah sepah
baju tak lipat

lapar?dahaga?penat?serabut?padan muka.
kalu diri sendiri takleh nak jaga,dont even think of nak jaga orang lain la.ok?

46

2010-04-13T17:39:00.001+09:00

『私って何の為に生きているの？』

『私の人生にどんな意味があるの？』

45

2010-04-13T08:54:00.001+09:00

'When I need him,he backs off.. its not only make me feel hopeless but also make the distance between us feel greater than before'

***
serabut dengan byk menda,but I will try to stay strong. eventho I am going to be alone in this.

44

2010-04-08T18:43:00.001+09:00

遠距離って、難しいよね。
会いたい時に会えない。
声を聞きたい時にも、電話代がかかるので、毎日はかけない。
毎日メールとSMSを待つだけで我慢してる。
あの人は元気ですか？
今日何食べる？
今日の仕事はどう？
順序？
今日どんな１日？

聞きたいこと、話したいこと、一緒にしたいこと、は、いっぱいあるよ。

時々、不安・心配になっている。
『あの人は本当に私のことを好きなのか？』
『だまされていないよね？』
『信じてもいいよね？』

色々不安が浮かんでいる。

でも、
私、ここにいるよ。
ここに待っている。
どんな辛くなるかわからないけど、頑張ります。
諦めないから。
そばにいるから。
あなたに、この関係に、信じているから。
ずっと愛しているから。

ずっとずっとずっとずっとずっと

愛している。

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2010-04-06T17:10:00.001+09:00

This is how my scheldule looks like for the rest of the year. Full with labs and enshuus.

I am taking 34 credits worth of 17 subjects(including 2 nights classes), 7 credits worth of 4 summer classes,and 12 credits worth of 12 labs and enshuus this year(2 sems-April 2010~March 2011).

Yet,I still have 10 credits to take next year.and not to forget, another final year project and thesis to write next year.

Will I survive and grad in 2 years time I had gave myself to?

Some said that I am crazy for doing this.
Even my lecturers are betting that I wont finish this in 2 years.

Nobody knows except Allah.

This time I want to push myself to the limint and see what am I truly made with and to prove to people around me of what I am capable to.

I will let you know eventually.

42

2010-04-06T13:49:00.002+09:00

Some met at schools
at tution centres
Some met through friends
or through relatives
Some met through the Facebook
and others through the Friendster
while some through chatsites
or through blogs
Some met accidentally
While know each other since forever
You never know where and when you are going to meet the special one
You might had met him/her somewhere before
Or hadnt yet.
as your path and his/her hadnt cross with each other yet.
I know
because the same thing happened to me.

how we met?
when did we met?
why we met?
what are the purpose of meeting him?
how long we are going to be together?
how far will we go?
etc
are still unanswered
as we are still written our own story.
with our own way
with our own style
others might think that our story are unbelievable
or lame
or ordinary
but this is
Our Own Story.
Nobody else's.

.::The G33k 1n P1nk::.

Ge ge ge no nyoubo

Vendors of My Wedding

11-10-11

Akad Nikah Review

short and quick

Dream and Choices

wahai hati....

Pavlova Pavlova~

mirror mirror on the wall,who is the fairest of all

Walking down the memory lane

merepek kerepek

seteres dan bizi

Day 18 – Something that makes you laugh.

Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.

Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music.

Day 15 - 5 people in your life right now who mean the most.

Day 14 – A photo of a cherished memory.

Day 13 - Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.

Day 12 - Bullet your whole day.

Day 11 - Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.

Day 10 – Someone who came into your life unexpected and made an impact.

Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like.

Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

Day 06 - A photo of yourself and write 30 interesting facts about yourself.

Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.

Day 04 - Your views on religion.

Happy CNY to friends who celebrating it~

Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.

Wordless Wednesday

Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

Get to know me in 30 days.

The Best Of 2010

87

Wordless Wednesday

86

Wordless Wednesday

85

84

83

82

81

80

Look, I guarantee there'll be tough times. I guarantee that at some point, one or both of us is gonna want to get out of this thing. But I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine, I'll regret it for the rest of my life, because I know, in my heart, you're the only one for me.

(quoted from Ike Graham, Runaway Bride 1999)I ♥ you MrBeau

[IKLAN]

79

77

76

74

73

Life is unfair.

You put someone first who puts you second.

You study your ass off for a final only to get a B in the class when you deserved an A.

You give 110% to someone in a relationship when they only give 40%.

You’re there for your best friend at 3 a.m. when they need it the most & the next day they don’t pick up their phone.

You give something your all & sometimes get little to nothing back.

You care so much about someone who doesn’t care enough about you to say hi once in a while.

You give someone your time & they give you “sorry, I’m busy”.

It seems like you’re giving everyone everything & they’re just walking away with it.

72

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

30 days challenge of myself

(quoted from Ike Graham, Runaway Bride 1999)

I ♥ you MrBeau