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membebel kejap~
taknak baca pun xpe. worthless unless your name is Ao.

bosan dok kat lab ni. bukan xde keje, banyak keje tapi kena supervise dak dak ni buat lab. sorang dah okay, boleh buat sendiri tapi yang sorang lagi ni boleh bikin aku nangis. nangis sebab dia ada chance tuk rosakkan alat alat dalam lab dan juga rosakkan data data yang bakal dia amik.
bilik aku still macam kapal tongkang pecah. seriously. pening aku tengok. tatau nak start kemas dari mana. bile kemas kemas jumpa la baju yang aku xpakai sebab rasa pelik bile pakai, tapi skali, try pakai nak test cambest plak. haih. baru je ingat nak buang baju tu....
seriously risau ngan budak sorang ni buat lab....

I am currently quite happy. Of many things.
ingat nak spend masa until 3 aja kat lab ni, tapi daijoubu kana tinggal budak ni buat lab xd orang tengok. well, ada la sorang lagi tapi dua dua budak baru jyan.....
I am going to leave Niihama for Osaka tonight. <3 *excited*

Aside that I am happy with what I got now, I am quite unsure of some of the things. like what am I going to do after graduating or how am I going to spend my university days etc...
I am thinking of doing second degree but I dont know. I am quite blur with what I want to do right now. I still want to study more but I dont know whether I want to continue in what I am doing now or explore new things.
crap, this cookies one of the girls bought is sooooooo goood! I feel like taking it all to home!
uhuk uhuk...sapa sebut nama aku ni??

I realize that I am very bad at expressing what I want and what I feel. kesian kat orang sekeliling. Do I have to say it all the time? I know you want me to say it but I cant make myself to. Ego kot...
Okay la, I say it here.

Herr Ao, Ich liebe dich!

huhu~ jangan muntah yek wahai pembaca sekalian!

*raburabu mode*

*munching cookie* seriously gooooood!

Owh carpal. rasa nak delete the whole paragraph. rasa yari sugi la plak. xpe la will delete it later after I came back from Osaka.

budak sorang ni buat aku rasa nak nangis....uhukuhuk

5 more hours before boarding the ferry....

4 more days to go before graduating.....

10 more days before leaving Niihama....

*emo emo emo*

Owh, frankly speaking, I am still not comfortable with the whole `thing`. People start to ask me with whom I am now, how do we met, what he is doing right now and even when are we going tie the `thing` etc etc etc.

I am afraid to say things that I dont know. not that I dont want to. I want to. Yes I do.

(iye aku tau la aku macam xd minat talking about this stuff with you.sorry)

I am just afraid if it doesnt work the way we plan it. I know that we can merancang but its all in Allah`s hand. I am just too afraid. Too afraid to be hurt again. Too afraid to hope too much. Too afraid if I am not up to par. Not that I am not in love with you. I love you too much that I am afraid I will hurt you. In many way.

I want to be able to say to everyone how much I love you.

or How important you are to me

or How did you save me from depression

I am so sorry.

Please bear with me for a little bit more until I have the courage to tell people how much I am proud to be with you.

I love you, Herr Asnawi. I do. I just dont know how to show it.

tetibe jadi super emo plak entry ni.biar la.skaliskala.

Okes, nak off and pegi siap2 kemas barang~

Doakan aku selamat pegi and selamat balik yeks~