Ya Aisyah...La Tahzan

And when He overcame you with sleep, making you feel secure, and sent you down water from heaven to purify you and remove the taint of satan from you, and to fortify your hearts and make your feet firm.
(Quran 8:11)

We will test you untill We know the true fighters among you and those who are steadfast and test what is reported of you.
(Quran 47:31)



saat sedih tensi frust...
kita buka Quran....
tak faham apa yang ditulis?
tak jumpa apa yang dicari?
aku buka kitab Harun Yahya.
Ya Aisyah La Tahzan !

Mengetap gigi....

mengetap gigi...
menyumbat telinga....
mengasingkan diri....
menyerabutkan kepala....

aku tak akan benarkan diri ini tewas lagi....
takkan.
aku mesti kuat.
dan aku akan kuat.

sambung mengetap gigi.
menahan amarah.

dah kecewa.













kenapa ramai orang asyik dok carik pasal ngan aku?
aku ada ganggu ko study ke?
aku ada curik scholar ko ke?
aku ada ngorat pakwe ko ke?
aku ada sakitkan hati ko ke?
xder kan?
tapi nape ko mesti carik menda nak sakitkan hati aku?
nape ko mesti try nak malukan aku kat public?
aku dah try treat ko sebaik yang mungkin
dah try husnul zdon sebaik mungkin ngan ko....
tapi KENAPA ko mesti nak sakitkan hati aku?
KENAPA ko mesti nak malukan aku?
kenapa,
ko mesti buat aku rasa keputusan aku sambung blaja kat sini,
satu kesalahan?
kenapa?
dream aku.
mimpi aku.
cita cita aku.
study kat sini.
xpercaya?
cuba tanya kawan2 sekolah aku.
cuba tanya mak aku.
cuba tanya adik2 aku.
ko tau x,
macam mana aku try?
tak tau kan?
ko tau x,
macam mana nerd nya aku dulu?
tak tau kan?
ko tau x,
macam mana gembiranya aku bila dapat scholar?
tak tau kan?
tapi,
kenapa ko mesti prejudis kat aku?
walhal kawan2 aku sayang cinta banget sama aku.
kenapa ko mesti try nak sakitkan hati aku?
padahal aku hanya jadi diri aku.
aku tak kacau ko.
tolong lah...

aku treat people the way I want to be treated.
aku dah banyak tolak ansur dah.
tolong....

lantak la.aku dah malas nak pikir.malas nak amik tahu.malas nak kisah.
泣いちゃった。。。
INSYA ALLAH.....今回の涙は最後の涙。。。
INSYA ALLAH....

satu lagi...
ko tau x?
kenapa aku cakap macam tu?
別にあなたのこといやとかはない。。。
面倒とかも考えていない。。。
ただ。。。
あなたに迷惑かけたくないだけだよ。。。
だって。。。
あなたのこと好きになってかもしれない。。。
本当に好きになるから。。。
迷惑かけたくないから。。。

カード送ってしまった。。。
開けずに捨ててください。。。





dah lama xketap gigi camni.macam2 buat aku serabut.entry ni bukan aku tujukan kat sorang hamba ALLAH aja.kepada beberapa hamba ALLAH aku tujukan entry ni.
aku manusia.aku ada perasaan.walaupun aku ni keras,tapi ada masa nya,aku lembut.

tag lagi....huah

kali ni...the gorgeous Suba tag me....

Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things / habits / little known facts about yourself.People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird habits / things / little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end, you need to choose people to be tagged and list their names.NO TAG backs!

1. aku suka berangan menda tah paper.
   
2. aku xleh amik caffeine berlebihan.semug instant coffee sehari pun kadang2 dah lebih tuk aku.kalo aku terlebih caffeine...1st perut aku meragam.lepas tu aku macam high.xder la gelak2.tapi aku buat menda pelik2 yang lepas tu,aku agak regret.*refer entry2 b4 this.owh!aku dah sorokkan entry tu!*
3. bilik aku penuh ngan softoys.ada sekor kat studylamp,sekor atas frame gambar...2 ekor aku baling2 atas meja ni...1 kat kipas...3 kat printer...1 kat tingkap...3 kat katil..1 kat almari...1 kat cermin....1 kat rak buku...1 kat pintu...lagi....
4. I love nattou.I even can eat nattou by its own.letak tare n mustard dia aje.makan ngan roti mcm baked beans pun sedap.letak dalam okonomiyaki pun sedap jugak!
5. I want to be a fulltime house wife.with a pHD.haha.
6. aku cepat cuak.tanye orang2 yang ada ngan aku mase aku balik mesia summer lepas.tanye adik2 aku bile aku lambat nak amik mak aku ke aku lupa ape2time aku lupa nak masak.time aku tersalah cakap paper..aku.cepat.cuak.
7. kalo aku suka seseorang atau kalo ada orang yang menarik perhatian aku...aku akan kacau die puas2.
8. I cant sleep without comforter/blanket.even tengah2 summer skali pun.kalo pegi umah orang, ayat wajib aku `aku nak slimut.` xd bantal xpe.selimut tu penting.
9. aku pernah msk onsen/hot spring.rotenburo/open hot spring lagi
10. aku pernah tabur thumb tack kat lantai n let anak sepupu aku jalan.she stepped on them and menangis la.pastu,I told her mum sume tu acident aja~
11. I prefer reading over watching.
12. I can spend a whole day reading blogs.lompat sana lompat sini.
13. I love playing sports but aku xbagus dalam mana2.boleh main aja.and I love running but sucks kalo lari long distance.dashing okay aja~
14. aku dah tak pakai all karut marut moisturizer.dah tak pakai yang mahal2 japan made moisturizers.now pakai olay total effect aja.beli dr mesia.effect die best wooooooo!!!!!!!
15. aku xleh bawak motor.xkisah la.sebab aku boleh merempit pakai keter mak aku.muahahahahhahahaha.ok.I love driving altho aku cepat cuak.owh.and peronality aku changed hampir 180degree mase aku drive.not proud of it kedo...

huahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...penat la buat menda ni!took separuh hari pikir nak tulis ape

revenge!
aku tag

1. afirmo
2. ani
3. calvin
4. aki
5. syuhaida

BUAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

blog

stop sume posts2 jiwang2 dan tak penting.
rini aku nak cerita pasal blog yang aku ada.

aku start kenal dan berjinak-jinak ngan dunia internet ni mase aku umur 11 tahun.mase tu aku main educational games je.

12 tahun.aku start men internet.time tu aku br kenal sailormoon.so aku surf internet carik citer2 asal sailormoon.
dan mase ni jugak aku start chatting kat Yahoo!Chat.

MIRC?aku main MIRC mase aku form 4.before tu xkenal MIRC sbb aku layan Yahoo!chat aje.mase tu jugak aku active kat Circle99.kenal MIRC from dak sekolah aku.mase tu sekolah aku baru buat Cyber Cafe dalam sekolah.so time2 free,aku lepak sana main MIRC.

form 4,aku join unit pertandingan kelab ICT sekolah aku.
banyak masa aku kat bilik kelab,aku start berblog.
blog first aku,kat myspace.
lepas tu....kat xanga
lepastu...kat blogger...
then aku lompat g friendster...
sebab mase tu aku ada prob ngn blogger aku...and terpaksa buat kat friendster.....
lepas tu aku ada buat len gak...
tapi aku dah delete most of them lepas aku buat account blogdrive aku..
aku rasa...y kat blogdrive ni la yang aku betul2 tulis ape yang aku rasa sampai macam2 jadi kat aku.
macam-macam jadi yang menyebabkan aku sorokkan blog aku kejap and bukak blog baru which skang ada lagi.tgu masa nak delete aja.
now,yukidaruma hidup lagi,tpi as photo blog aku je.post lama2 ada je,sayang nak delete post lama2.
skang,aku kat sini
buat ni pun sbb masalah y timbul kat yukidaruma.
actually,aku ada lagi satu account kat wordpress.blog ni,aku tak bgtau sapa kat mana.nama sume,bukan nama aku and nick yang aku pakai kat sana,bukan nick yang biasa aku pakai.aku jarang update sana as kat sana,aku xtulis menda2 mengarut macam aku tulis kat blog2 aku yang len.tapi xder la tulis yang berat2.
kira-kira,aku ada...8blog.yang dah delete...hurm...ada la 2,3...
yang active....sini, sini dan wordpress aku.
=3

tag.

(i)Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time : 2124 Niihama shi,Ehime ken,Japan
Name : Nurul Amalina `Aisyah Muhamad Azmi
Sisters : 5
Brothers : 3
Shoe size : 5
Height : 163cm [erk??]
here do you live : Yagumo cho, Niihama shi, Ehime ken,Japan
Have you everFallen asleep at school :
Used to be my fave activity during school.now,RARELY.yep.
Broken someone's heart :
ada.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call :
nope
Who was were the last personYou danced with :
ar?anak sepupu aku.
Last made you smile :
jap tadi.finished an onigiri
You last yelled at :
myself

Random
Do you like your hand-writing :
depends
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in :
my parents`,hotel-sape boleh resist katil hotel ngan bantal fluffy and comforter best?-
Are you a friendly person :
yep.love me or hate me
Do you have any pets :
Diana the cat.a few goldfishes mse kat PPKTJ.
What are you doing right now :
makan oat+sup bayam
Can you handle the truth :
insya ALLAH
Are you closer to your mother or father :
dearest mommy...n daddy ich liebe!
Do you eat healthy :
alhamdulillah.trying my best here
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to :
journal.mommy.others.
yep
5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
ha......
1-sitting for my UPSR
2-jumpa Firdaus for the first time after...erm...5 years plus plus plus.
3-Last time jumpa Firdaus.sampai skang.10years already eh?
4-tuisyen kat umah teacher Siram Bibi.
5-got 1st period.hahaha

5 places I am living in ( places I've lived in since i was born till current)
1-Rumah.
2-Marang,Terengganu
3-Kolej Kedua UTM jalan Semarak
4-Niihama shi,Ehime ken,Japan.
5-Port Klang.umah nenek.

5 people I tag
syaza->done
joyce->done
calvin...waiting
irfan senpai...waiting
suba-chan...waiting

(ii)
1. The person who last tag you is:
Ani
2. Your relationship with him/her is:
My smelly sister.the bising one.
3. Your five impression of him/her:
bising
smelly
ngade2
chocs
manje
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:
haiyoh....byk.hoho~
5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:
ina busuk?xkire..cis ape punye adik
6. If he/she become your lover, you will:
NOWAY!
7. If he/she become your enemy, you will:
simbah minyak masak kat novel2 ani.bakar.hentak laptop ani.hahahaha
8. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be:
saa~boleh ke sisters jd enemy?
9. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is..
a fullly sponsored trip to Czech.and a custom made gown in white and pink lace.
10. Your overall impression of him/her is:
ani.is.ani.my dear sister.
11. How you think people around you will feel about you?:
`budak ni pelik` perasan sombong etc etc
12. The characters you love of yourself are:
degil
13. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are:
blunt.鈍感.
14. The most ideal person you want to be is:
good muslimah,good daughter,lovable sister,wife,mother,lover and a great scientist and lecturer and etc etc etc
15. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you:
1-syaza
2-joyce
3-irfan senpai-kite tgk die buat ke x menda ni-
4-suba-chan
5-calvin
6-chan chan..waiting
7-AKI!...waiting
8-afiq...waiting
9-afirmo-email ur answers to me la--->said no already
10-joann...done
16. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
saa....tatau
17. Is no.9 a male or female:
male
18. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
what will no.7`s gf say?
19. What is no.2 studying about?
civil eng
20. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
few days ago.
21. What kind of music band does no.8 like?
nasyid?
22. Does no.1 have any siblings?
ada
23. Will you woo no.3?
macam la die nak kat aku
24. How about no.7?
aki?nak mampus.noway.he`s my bestest boyfriend ever.
25. Is no.4 single?
nope
26. What is the surname of no.5?
Ong
27. What’s the hobby of no.4?
saa....tatau..*blush*
28. Does no.5 and 9 get along well?
dorang xkenal pun each other.
29. Where is no.2 studying at?
akashi,japan
30. Talk something casually about no.1:
she is syaza!
31. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
erk?xbrani.
32. Where does no.9 live at?
KK,few minutes from my house by car.
33. What colour does no.4 like?
I dunno
34. Are no.5 and 1 best friend?
saa.....
35. Does no.1 have any pets?
dont think so
36. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
hahaha~aki=sexy?noway!
37. What is no. 10 doing now?
study.