Monday, August 29, 2011

short and quick

It is 29th Ramadhan and 29th August today and my mum is chasing me out of my old/bachelorette room into my brand new room. It is kinda emotional for me to part with my old room as the room hold quite a lot of memories. 

My old room was situated on the second floor of the new wing. I choose the paint myself, kinda liked blue that time so my room and the adjoined bathroom/toilet were painted in blue. so do with the balcony. My mum only bought me a new wardrobe, a sliding door wardrobe big enough for me to stuff my things. I got into the room when I was 18 years old and it was the year I sat for my SPM.

I did almost all my studies inside the room. Sticking a newspaper cut of the new intake of AAJ on the wall beside my study table and promising myself to study hard. I scattered my mangas, my clothes and made the room mine. I studied, recited my studies loudly sometimes until 3 am, and got into PPKTJ. Since there, I left the room and only got back for once a month or sometimes once in three months. but the room is still mine. and still mine after I fly to Japan.

But as today, I am moving out the room into a newer room just below my old room. My old room will never be mine and it will be my sisters'. A new room, a new life, a new beginning. In many ways. 

Here I am, writing a piece of mind about the room, and saraba my old room. we shall meet again. 

By the way, to all my muslim readers, Happy Eid-Ul-Fitr. Have a blessed one and please, dont overspend. Think before you buy anything. Do you need that 10 kinds of cookies or another pairs of shoes to match the 11th pair of baju raya? Think

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Dream and Choices

My dreams can be closely linked to how I feeling that moment and what I am thinking, so they were usually bizarre and weird. Sometimes it feels real and like something that will happened in my life.

As the day is closely nearing me, I keep having weird dreams. But none affected me except for one particular dream I saw sometime in last week.

It was about the choice I had made. About me, someone dear to me. Lets call him B

I dreamed of B suddenly come to me and asking why I didnt wait for him but instead choose someone else. B, in my dream were quite different from whom I knew all of these years but his playful attitude didnt change. I kinda startled with the Q and I dont know how to answer him. He then kept appearing here and there, amused me with every trivia facts that he knows about me, trying to charm me back. Seriously I were dumbstruck, not knowing what to do or what to say. And I, in my dream started to doubt my choice; why did I choose someone I merely know instead of someone who knows almost everything about me, why didnt I waited for him, why and why and why.

I was woken up feeling very confused and all I wanted was to curl down and to cry. But obviously, I cant. I had loads of stuff to be done that day so I carried my day away, feeling confused and I kept thinking why did I made the choice until at noon, after I ran my errands and was on my way back to home, something struck my mind;

I didnt choose someone who is perfect and knows everything about me. I dont need someone who is now working my dream job and making fortunes. Nope, I dont need them all. I just need someone, whom I know is not perfect at all but he is and he will try to be the best for me. He who is willing to learn everything about me and wants to share every single thing, from a small piece of his fave cookies to his biggest secret just with me. He who loves me and wants to love me more everyday. He whom I love now.

When I realized the facts, all the confusion went away. Just like that. In a breeze.

Guy, lets make our own way together, and lets build our life together. ne? Love you!

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Imma off to Tokyo~
doakan semoga semua selamat2 sahaja ya~

Monday, August 1, 2011

wahai hati....

jangan dok excited sangat bilang hari bape hari lagi tinggal before balik jejak tanah malaya.
banyak lagi keje nak kena setel before that.

resumes tak tulis lagi,
gambar tak amik lagi.
rumah tak kemas lagi,
food stuffs berlambak kat dalam fridge tu nak suh sapa makan?
mikochin sapa nak adopt?
bills tak bayar lagi.
esok ada exam lagi.
lab? heh,banyak kot bertangguh
data kai punya junbi apa pun x buat lagi.
and so do with preparation nak mengajar.

senyap2, diam2 setelkan seme keje dulu ek!

baidewei guys~
Selamat menyambut bulan yang penuh barakah, selamat beribadat dan selamat berpuasa~!
(kepada yang berpuasa la)

takyah dok pikir sangat arini ni buka makan apa, nak moreh apa. yang penting, bape juzuk dah baca quran arini, dah solat sunat ke blum? dah terawih cukup2 ke? zikir plak camno?

hehe,peringatan kepada diri sendiri jua~