mirror mirror on the wall,who is the fairest of all

*sigh*
I have been taking supplements, carefully taking care of myself,trying to eat healthily but yet, yesterday, when I skyp-ed with a friend,she told me that I looked sickly and pale than usual although I had my foundation on that time. Isn`t this bad?

Supplements and skincares by my bed for easy access

1- Body Lotion, 2-hair serum, 3-multivits, 4-Herbal supplement, 5-night cream, 6-chocola BB pure for skin and fatigue, 7-chapstick, 8-eyecream ,9-foot cream

I agreed that I am kinda tired when I started my FYP. Long hours in lab, standing while doing experiments with a few classes in between, gotten sick twice in 2 months (a record!) so I decided to take some multivits and the chocola BB to help me. Yup,somehow after taking BB,I feel much energize in the morning but I guess something is lacking coz people keeps mentioning to me how tired I look nowadays. And I hate to take pictures lately because I look like a shit with panda eyes and dull skin. #HALP!

My daily beauty regime involved of

1-taking my multivits every morning with a glass of water.

2-1 capsule of herbal supplement twice a day.

3-1 pill of Chocola BB twice a day.

4-Double cleansing (first with some cleansing oil then followed up with foaming facial wash)

5-Toner > day cream(Olay Total Effect) > Sunscreen (SPF50) for day, Toner > Night cream (Isoflavon apemendatah) for night

For weekly regime I

1- scrub my whole body

2-facial mask (clay or sheet depending on my mood)

3-Foot scrub

Twice or trice a week I would,

1-lotion my body

2-slather foot cream

3-put some eye cream (too lazy to do it everyday huhu)

4-drink freshly squeezed grapefruit juice or lemon juice

5-have yogurt. plain with some fruits

I also try to drink a lot of water and try to avoid sodas but it is very hard to do T.T I also eat a lot of fresh veges and fruits. 

I have been following these regimes for the last 2 or 3 months but if people keep telling me that my skin is dull than glowing, that means there is something lacking in my regime. What should I do???

I am not trying to be as white as I can but I want my skin to glow naturally and healthily without looking pale and sickly. 

Maybe I should opt for air jampi and mandi bunga starting from now?

Walking down the memory lane

I kinda bored in the lab so I did something pretty stupid; googling my own name and pictures.
I came across a few of my older entries and I spent a good few hours reading all the entries I wrote up till the one I wrote in March.

Then, I came across this particular entry

The one I wrote a few months before I decided that I want to go to Tokushima Uni and do Biotech (okay lah,the full name of my course isnt biotech but Engineering in Biological Reactions blah blah blah)
I wrote that entry almost 2 years and 3 months ago,but it still managed to make me thinking of what I want to do in the future.
For the time being, I do want to be an engineer. The dream of being a full housewife will have to KIV until the time come.
I do want to spend a part of my life surrounding with test tubes, beakers, playing with microbs etc. I DO! and I want to.
I wrote there that my kosen`s FYP was kinda boring but actually, it wasnt. I kinda like it and what kind of result I will get each time made me excited. And the feeling after I managed to finish my thesis was indescribable. I felt like `Ya Allah,I never thought that I will be able to write this.Thank you`
The talk of being a freelance photographer and the somekind of passion of doing so dimmed somewhere in the middle of 2010 with me being too busy with Amino Acids, Microbs, and molecular biology. Did I regretted it? Nope. Not at all.

I am now in the middle of making life changing decision again.
I also just start my other FYP. Again,but in different course.

Some things had changed from the last time I realized it.

Out of nowhere, in a blink of an eye, I am now a fourth year student.
I am heading to my quarter of a century`s birthday.
I had changed from a skinny with small feet girl into this not skinny anymore but her feet still remain as small.
But I hope, my inner side wont change,or at least change into a better one.

(Lab B1 2011/2012)

In a blink of an eye, I am in Japan for 4 years and counting.