I came across a few of my older entries and I spent a good few hours reading all the entries I wrote up till the one I wrote in March.
Then, I came across this particular entry
The one I wrote a few months before I decided that I want to go to Tokushima Uni and do Biotech (okay lah,the full name of my course isnt biotech but Engineering in Biological Reactions blah blah blah)
I wrote that entry almost 2 years and 3 months ago,but it still managed to make me thinking of what I want to do in the future.
For the time being, I do want to be an engineer. The dream of being a full housewife will have to KIV until the time come.
I do want to spend a part of my life surrounding with test tubes, beakers, playing with microbs etc. I DO! and I want to.
I wrote there that my kosen`s FYP was kinda boring but actually, it wasnt. I kinda like it and what kind of result I will get each time made me excited. And the feeling after I managed to finish my thesis was indescribable. I felt like `Ya Allah,I never thought that I will be able to write this.Thank you`
The talk of being a freelance photographer and the somekind of passion of doing so dimmed somewhere in the middle of 2010 with me being too busy with Amino Acids, Microbs, and molecular biology. Did I regretted it? Nope. Not at all.
I am now in the middle of making life changing decision again.
I also just start my other FYP. Again,but in different course.
Some things had changed from the last time I realized it.
Out of nowhere, in a blink of an eye, I am now a fourth year student.
I am heading to my quarter of a century`s birthday.
I had changed from a skinny with small feet girl into this not skinny anymore but her feet still remain as small.
But I hope, my inner side wont change,or at least change into a better one.
(Lab B1 2011/2012)
In a blink of an eye, I am in Japan for 4 years and counting.