Just before hitting 2010

I just did the stupidest thing I had ever done ever for this year.

The one that is much more stupid than partying in USJ for a whole day and night and sleeping in the street wearing a thin jacket during winter and caught a nasty cold after that
The stupidest mail sent.
The stupidest joke said.
NOW I have to bear with the consequence.
The best way to end a year.
with heartacheSS

WHY must I always end my year with heartachesSs?
2007->2008 pun sama,
2008->2009 pun sama,
and now 2009->2010 pun??

Just once, I want things to work the way I want it to be.
JUST ONCE.

no friend to talk to,
no friend who truly care,
no friend to hugs.

I wanna go home.
but I cant.

for now, I just want to curl up
and
CRY.